Busy hating myself today and just can't seem to get past it for some reason. Not sure how many times I will need to keep learning the same lessons. My father's drug of choice was alcohol and I hated him for it. I hated the broken promises and him always choosing booze over family. He's been gone a year and I wish I could just talk to him about it, tell him I understand now and I'm not mad about it anymore. I used to be proud of not having an addictive personality but it looks like that has all changed. Perhaps this is the universe teaching me humility. Not sure how much longer I can stand feeling so broken.
I am very sorry that you feel this way... If possible, then meet him if possible, talk to him and I believe that you will feel better then. I also do not judge those people who are addicted on something and understand them, because I am aware that I am not better than others and this teaches me to be humble. Be strong and don't give up, we hear you and are with you in support.
Checking in. Feeling a little better after a good night's sleep. Not great but a bit of an improvement.
Reset today, on my 2nd day back at work from home alone. I feel like I might need to get back to working from an office withohter people, but my wife is scared of how much that would change our routines.
Praise be to God! I wish the next week in the same spirit, don't give up, be strong, you can do it in the power of God! Lots of encouragement!
Day 45 Fantasies have remained less and the desire to do M has not been there, because every time a fantasy enters my head, I start forcing myself to think about something else and ask God for help until my mind calms down. I wish you all to keep fighting and don't give up and may you succeed in achieving your goals!
Checking in. Tons of anxiety and dread because of missing our kitty. Feeling vulnerable with a few urges, but going strong.
Do not give up, keep believing and pray God for help and fight with all your strength and when you want to get rid of that addiction with all your heart, you will succeed. Lots of cheers for you.
Checking in, today is easier thankfully. And I have a weekend of busy times with the family coming up so unlikely to slip up. I might actually be able to bounce back for once, and not spend days and struggling to get a few days' streak going.
