35 and Older Accountability Group

Failed again, starting over fresh.

Let's go

 

Day 4.

 

Stay strong brother, don't give up!
Stay on the narrow path and in God's grace.
May God help you overcome temptations!

I wish the same for the others!

 

Checking in - my last day of work before a two week break. Hope everyone is okay today

 

Day 5.

 

feeling like a hopeless addict... blah reset

 

Día 3

 

Checking in - happy Friday everyone

 

Hi all. I relapsed again. I think lack of enough sleep and being tired makes it easier for me to relapse

 

Checking in for another day free of P

 

Muchas gracias.
Voy a buscar.
Mi problema es más el móvil .

 

Checking in, all good , getting better dealing with my problem instead of escaping them

 

Day 6.

 

Day 200 in a row of no PMO, one day at a time, by the Grace of God, for this 40 year old addict.

 

Friday check-in. Have been to church service as today is Good Friday. Thereafter I went to a climbing wall together with my girlfriend; first time I've tried it, it went reasonably well. This evening we made made pork ribs for dinner; it was delicious. My girlfriend has now left to visit her brother, while I will rest and have a chat with my parents.

No time for urges today, luckily. And now I'm too tired to think about it.

All the best to my fellow group members!

 

I'll be honest, I'm really struggling.

Can't find work or even figure out what jobs to apply to, can't control my urges, have no source of joy in my life... fuck.

Recommitting and retrying

 

Reset.

 

Just hit day 7. Was 18 before that. I can second the cold turkey app. As a tech guy who knows how to work via the command line, VMs, etc., cold turkey has been the only blocker that has stayed solid, even working against things like task manager etc. So today I was checking to see if a new kids safe browser coupled with a blocker app would work on my phone. In testing it, it failed, and as a result of having to see images for a few seconds, I could feel the beginnings of the dopamine rush so I stopped. Surprisingly, that few seconds seemed to be enough (or maybe it was incoming anyway) to trigger a full scale 3 hour panic attack. Holy crap it was rough. I happened to be talking with a therapy medications nurse mid attack, which was horrible, and she prescribed zoloft. Anyone have any experience with zoloft in either pmo or non-pmo context?

Keep fighting the good fight you all.

 

Things are getting harder, thinking of relapsing but i know the pain it will bring.