I didn't realize it at the time but once the main infatuation had passes I was so extremely selfish and un giving. My ex's favorite movie is moonstruxk and I refused to watch it with her because it has Nicholas Cage. She really wanted to share it with me. I cringe when I think about that now and there are so many other examples. She did many things for me unasked and I took it all for granted while doing as little as possible in return. I've been that with every girlfriend which explains why my history with women is a disaster. All short term relationships and now I'm alone. I reaped what I sowed. I think I would be much different now. My daughter has changed who I am in many ways.
Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about. The wound is the place where the Light enters you. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along. Only from the heart can you touch the sky. When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy. The cure for pain is in the pain. As you start to walk out on the way, the way appears. Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form. Rumi
Sometimes opportunities come to us, like magic, that change the course of our lives. Is this one of those? Does it mean it's time to revise your PMO goals? Maybe it will be obvious. I'd say the more self-aware you can be during this visit, the better. Notice your thoughts, urges, plans, and how you try to fit all this into your life.
Healing and Recovery A book by Dr david r Hawkins The message here is : "We are subject to what we hold in mind". I'd heard the saying "Mind over Matter" many times but had never fully grasped the gravity of its meaning until reading this book. I'd always supposed that it meant that you could "will" something away. Very happy to discover that willfulness "don't work" (I'd been breaking my back for years trying!!) and all you need is the willingness to surrender to something as it is. Very different to passivity! Practical and straight-forward. Source:From Amazon's comment.