133/365 I'm not sure what's going on today, but I feel pretty low. I wish during times like this that jerking off wouldn't come to mind as an option automatically. Anyways, I'm moving forward.
I know what you say. Seeing others on their 100 or 200 th day really impresses me and makes me wanna get there. I wasn't talking about insecurity, just remembering myself on day 70 and something in the past. Anyway, live it up
Damn, I failed! Day 0, once again. I hope this will be just one slip in my 365 day path. So I won't start over with the counter, but I'll write 50 + 1,2,3 if I'll not slip again. So 50 day today. I hope tomorrow they will be 50 + 1.
6/365 I look forward by now to come here and report. Only 6 out of 365 but soon it’s two digits. I don’t want to sink back into the low life, which it is to be so on the hook and being lost in such bad behavior. I don’t condemn anyone who struggles but I do my past actions and what it made out of me and what it prevented me to unfold in life what could have unfold.
I understand you like the number 50. Why not rather make it 0 and what it is and use the 50 you feel so bad to have lost the engine to be determined to keep your direction going forward. Sounds cleaner to me.
Man, I guess you're right. "50" was a psychological thing in order to not feel so bad about losing my streak. But you're right: I shall use it as my engine. Way cleaner. So day 0.
Day 40 Started reading some erotic literature last night and it really ramped up those urges today.Gotta stay away from those stories.
Eighth day without pmo. I am doing a list updating every day about why I don't want pmo: day 1) I want to recover passion in my life; day 2) I want harmony with other people; day 3) I want to listen to my emotions; day 4) I want to recover self esteem; day 5) I want to love myself; day 6) I want to appreciate the little things of life; day 7) I want to appreciate quotidianty; day 8) I want to live my pulses, not be frightened by urges.
Thanks for teaching me a new word. quotidian - adjective. daily: a quotidian report. usual or customary; everyday: quotidian needs. ordinary; commonplace: paintings of no more than quotidian artistry. (of a fever, ague, etc.) characterized by paroxysms that recur daily.
55/365. It's personally very humbling to see how people with long streaks still stumble. You can never let your guard down. I hope we can all reach our goals.
How are you guys doing? I hope all of you are awesome. I'm on 38 days. I'm so fresh and wonderful. Be yourself and upbeat about our life. Peace.
I have been waking up alot from sleep the last 5 nights or so. I'm very tired which for me can lead to poor choices and impulsive actions. I've become somewhat obsessed about getting myself in financial shape. I've been in recovery from a gambling addiction for 3 1/2 years. While being so concerned with getting in financial shape I've been neglecting other very important areas of my life. I need to get in balance here. Anyway another day. Good night.