please don’t ever feel embarrassed or ashamed bud! Most of us here have been in some pretty dark places! We can all look after each other and help! You’ve done really well at this before and proved you can nail this - you just need to step back… calm down… find some focus and get back at it! You can do this buddy! Here if you need me!
Day 7/90! Forgot to update yesterday. Just dreamed some P pictures in my phone before woke up. Need to stay alert!
Feeling less anxious than last three days. Hopefully making it to the end of first week of no PMO. Keeping myself busy through learning coding, cycling and talking to people around me.
8 days and counting.. It's fascinating how a simple word or image can trigger your brain.. Even though I didn't loose control not for even a second it's scary how my brain didn't "leave me the F**k alone" for 6 hours straight more or less.. Is it gonna be like this after 3 months or 6 months or a year? It should get better right?
it gets better bud. I’d honestly say the first two weeks were the worst… I’ve then had random “moments” of temptation… where my brain “suggests” I do something and I refuse! This morning was close and I actually thought for a second or two before saying “NO”! They get less… And you learn you can say “no” as you did yesterday, last week etc..
It does get better over time. Remembering the phrase “I don’t do that anymore” is helpful. There will still be images and situations that pop up and surprise you. Keeping that phrase well practiced is helpful.
