90 Day PM Challenge

I’m in for this challenge. Relapsed Many times, engaged last year, porn totally affects my relationship. Need to get a grip.

 

Day 4, pretty good. Was on my YouTube history and accidentally saw the thumbnails of hot girls dancing. Quickly deleted it all. Very dangerous, had urges to watch and go to porn site but once I deleted all and came to this community,urges gone, thank you.

 

Day 9, doing pretty good. Definitely feel more confident cuz I have no guilt about watching porn as I’m not watching at all. Nothing to hide, no shame.

urge is a bit there, telling me it’s ok to watch a bit of the soft core stuff. But I know if I do that, I’ll just break my word and lose will power again. I’m checking this forum every day to keep Myself in this positive vibe. Thanks to everyone here sharing the journey. Keep it up !

 

Urge tonight Is very strong, so I’m journaling here. Thinking about those dancing Kpop videos.....but I’ll stop.....

 

didn’t watch. Still good thanks!

 

Unfortunately, I replapsed after 17 days, urge was too strong last night. Disastrous FAP till morning and even almost Twice. Restarting again....may be should go for 30 days first.....

 

Thanks man. I felt terrible in the morning, but managed to get through my day. I want to stay in this thread. I think I’m more ready for a longer streak or beyond what I think I can do.

 

Hey guys,

I'm new to this board and thought it would be a great idea to introduce myself and to take the 90 days challenge.
I have been consuming porn for over a decade now. At least I guess so but I'm not quite sure because I really don't remember when all this has started.

Due to some bad decisions in the past I was without a job the first three months of the year and...holy crap. I was surprised how fast I can loose any kind of motivation. My behaviour was getting worse much faster than I thought.

Yesterday I noticed that I developed a strange feeling when meeting new people - either in person or via telephone (I'm a sales person) - I couldn't help but thinking about it and realized that I've been thinking about how people would react if they found out about my "condition".

Instead of battling my fears I use porn to procrastinate which makes it even harder for me to change my behaviour.

I really want to change and to stop watching porn because it starts to affect my social life. I'm feeling anxious, powerless and I'm afraid to meet new people ALTHOUGH I am an outgoing person.

@art231 Today is my first day of the 90 day challenge and I would appreciate if I could also share my experiences here throughout my journey.

I wish all of you much strength and I'm looking forward to go this path with you guys.


Much love.

 

welcome man! I don’t see your counter, update I’d you haven’t. I have relapsed consecutively for 3 days after a 17 day streak. But I’m on track now. I’ve set up porn blocker on my iPad and then asked my mom to set password. (I’m in my late 30s btw). There is no way I’m gonna ask my mom for password late at night or morning cuz of porn urge. So I’m pretty safe, I think. Just need to watch out for softcore and sexy stuff I can’t block. Good luck!

 

Day 2 and everything is fine so far. I also decided to stop watching Amazon Prime, TV, Twitch, Youtube and other nonsense.
I try to reduce my screen time to a minimum (except for work). I think this is the fastest way to "reset my brain" and it works really well.

I also blocked P sites. I use the program Cold Turkey - it even blocks sites when you delete the program so I am safe there

@Kriyaban I really don't know how to set the timer - is it in the "signature section" of my profile?

thanks for the warm welcome!

 

your signature is working now! Great! About Cold Turkey, is it an app? If it blocks sites even after you delete, then how can you access certain sites with adult content that are for other purposes or reach etc in the future? There must be some reset? Sounds like a rigorous program in a good way, no going back...

 

Yeah, it's an app for Win and OsX. You can build your own block list or you can use a predefined list from Cold Turkey with either thousands of P sites or sites which harm your productivity like FB or YT.

Once you set the schedule - let's say: "block all adult sites until 12/31/20" it's done.
You cannot reset this schedule inside the app itself.

I guess there are ways to bypass the blocking - there are always ways to bypass everything , but I haven't done any research in particular.