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Hello everyone,
Hope you all are doing well. I'm posting here because I want to introduce myself and keep a track of my NoFap journey. This forum was known to me quite a while and I read interesting articles here and there. Some of them are really breathtaking.
I stopped to masturbate on the 12th of August, to find joy and happiness in my life again.
About Me
I'm from Austria, became 24 years old on the 6th of August. I'm running my own company but suffering from depression, so it's impossible for me to reach my goals at this state and having absolutely no joy of life.
The first time
I remember the first time I masturbated accidently, being 11 years old. My brother got a Wrestling DVD from his friend, which I really enjoyed at this time.
One day I was home alone watching it. There was this Playboy match between Torrie Wilson and Sable (gosh they were hot). While I was watching it, I felt something strange feeling between my legs, so I checked it with my hands. At first I thought I pissed myself because it was wet down there, but the liquid was thick and somehow sticky. After some research on the web, I knew what was happening.
From this point on, I started to masturbate regularly.
Why am I doing this?
The last couple of months were horrible for me. I masturbated on average twice a day, sometimes up to four times a day. This probably seems like an addiction, but personally I don't have the feeling to be addicted to masturbation and I'm certainly not addicted to porn (I jerk off solely on thoughts aswell).
Why? Because when I'm feeling good, for example out on a holiday for 2 weeks, I don't masturbate at all. I don't even think about it.
The bad side
The reason why I masturbate is because I'm either depressed or utterly bored. It's basically my only source of happiness during the day, at least I'm so f****d up, that I think like this.
I wake up in the morning, and I'm already tired of the day. Even little things are exhausting for me. When a friend or family member asks me to go out, I'm so tired that I want to stay infront of my PC, even though I think about going out, traveling the world and so on when I'm alone.
I already tried several things to overcome my depression, like having a structured day, morning routines, going to the gym etc., but nothing worked out long term. I'm doing it for like two weeks, then I suddenly stop because I'm sick of it. So I thought this is a deeper issue and want to try out NoFap.
My expectations
I have to say I expect much from this journey, not sure if this is a good idea. I need to change my way of living completely, so it's possible for me to reach the goals I have. Here's a list I want to change for the greater good.
Your thoughts
I would like to know if there's someone who has similar problems as me and how you achieved your situation. Let me know your thoughts
Hope you all are doing well. I'm posting here because I want to introduce myself and keep a track of my NoFap journey. This forum was known to me quite a while and I read interesting articles here and there. Some of them are really breathtaking.
I stopped to masturbate on the 12th of August, to find joy and happiness in my life again.
About Me
I'm from Austria, became 24 years old on the 6th of August. I'm running my own company but suffering from depression, so it's impossible for me to reach my goals at this state and having absolutely no joy of life.
The first time
I remember the first time I masturbated accidently, being 11 years old. My brother got a Wrestling DVD from his friend, which I really enjoyed at this time.
One day I was home alone watching it. There was this Playboy match between Torrie Wilson and Sable (gosh they were hot). While I was watching it, I felt something strange feeling between my legs, so I checked it with my hands. At first I thought I pissed myself because it was wet down there, but the liquid was thick and somehow sticky. After some research on the web, I knew what was happening.
From this point on, I started to masturbate regularly.
Why am I doing this?
The last couple of months were horrible for me. I masturbated on average twice a day, sometimes up to four times a day. This probably seems like an addiction, but personally I don't have the feeling to be addicted to masturbation and I'm certainly not addicted to porn (I jerk off solely on thoughts aswell).
Why? Because when I'm feeling good, for example out on a holiday for 2 weeks, I don't masturbate at all. I don't even think about it.
The bad side
The reason why I masturbate is because I'm either depressed or utterly bored. It's basically my only source of happiness during the day, at least I'm so f****d up, that I think like this.
I wake up in the morning, and I'm already tired of the day. Even little things are exhausting for me. When a friend or family member asks me to go out, I'm so tired that I want to stay infront of my PC, even though I think about going out, traveling the world and so on when I'm alone.
I already tried several things to overcome my depression, like having a structured day, morning routines, going to the gym etc., but nothing worked out long term. I'm doing it for like two weeks, then I suddenly stop because I'm sick of it. So I thought this is a deeper issue and want to try out NoFap.
My expectations
I have to say I expect much from this journey, not sure if this is a good idea. I need to change my way of living completely, so it's possible for me to reach the goals I have. Here's a list I want to change for the greater good.
- Get out of bed in the morning the moment I wake up
- Socializing more with friends and family
- Having a structured day with routines
- Going to the gym and eat healthy
- Don't give up on things after two weeks
- Feeling to have a purpose in life
Your thoughts
I would like to know if there's someone who has similar problems as me and how you achieved your situation. Let me know your thoughts
