An update on my sissy hypno and porn addiction

So, first of all I apologize if my counter didn't update - but I just updated it to start today.

After my first post about getting deep into sissy hypno, I came here and got some pretty good advice - it got me motivated, and I actually went on an 8 day streak.... Though for the next 4-5 days after, I found myself slowly relapsing into wearing lingerie and fucking myself, essentially - though without the hypno.

For the first couple of days it got pretty bad, i'd wear the lingerie under my clothes as I went and bought condoms to put on my dildo, and.. Well, you know. Though the last couple of days something interesting happened. I found myself getting back into hypnosis, though it did not have the effect that I expected. I put on the lingerie, watched the hypno video and started masturbating. Halfway through, I kinda didn't feel it anymore. So I took the clothes off and just jacked off to pictures of women. The exact same thing happened today. I put lingerie on, started listening to hypno and halfway through I kinda just... lost interest and again, masturbating to nudes/lewds of women.

Now, this isn't a recovery by ANY means - but honestly, in that 8 day streak I felt so good about myself that coming back to the hypnosis just didn't feel right... I knew it was downhill from there. I threw the lingerie away and got rid of the dildo - and I don't know what I'm gonna do now or how I may feel tomorrow... But the past couple of days gave me the impression that I'm getting sick of it.

The obvious end goal is to stop masturbating all together, but at this point, I don't know - maybe I'd like some encouragement, maybe even a word of advice from someone who has gone through the same thing.... Whether me seemingly getting sick of this right now is a good thing or not - I don't know, my head's a little all over the place, but its gearing towards an optimistic direction. Should it be?