Couple therapy

so... we go to couple therapy... but is it helping??
It is better than not going. Any help you all can get to overcome this tragic compulsion the better. I have found if completely honest and completely humble to suggestions therapy can/will help.

I dont know... I dont trust my husband... I am sorry your husband has broken your trust. First and foremost know it isn't an anyway your fault he has a PMO addiction. No matter what crazy making language he spins on you, He has a problem and He must overcome it. There is nothing wrong with setting boundaries and keeping yourself safe.

I dont feel emotionally there to forgive or forget and I somehow feel I resent him... Rightly so, you are experiencing trauma. His disclosure and behavior necessitated your withdrawal from him. Your disassociation with him emotionally is to protect yourself and your marriage. That is normal and noble. Eventually after much work and progress you will need to forgive, obviously that time is not right, as of now. Keep seeing the therapist, get help from noFap, study and grow emotionally. It will come. Again you are doing nothing wrong by being affected, resentment is also normal. He broke vows. It's hard to not feel betrayed. I would recommend not letting those feelings debilitate your relationship if at all possible, it only slows the healing process.

I dont even no if I’m even in love with him like I use to be... Nope things are now different. It's painful and the love is something you will have to decide on your own. I would say please don't make life decisions based off of hurtful reactions. Lay down some clear boundaries and if he commits to them and shows effort, then it's worth saving. There may still be fight in that old dog. You will do more good by supporting his recovery and helping him grow and heal than just kicking him to the curb to justify hurt feelings. Ask him, I bet he will say he never wanted to hurt you, yet his actions fail otherwise.

I dont even know if I want to stay in this marriage... Only you can decide. I say marriage is devine, and being alone can be equally sorrowful. I'd fight for rebuilding a marriage over starting alone any day.

so how is couple therapy going to work?? It works by you two showing up and doing the work. It works by communicating, by understanding one another. It works by identifing what is broken and resolving it. There are few therapists that do not have your guys' success as thier primary motivation. That kind of help is a true blessing.

Why are we fixing the end before working in the beggining...his porn addiction and my discovery...
Yes your discovery, current state of marriage, feelings, and trauma should be brought up in counseling. This is your reality, not dealing with it is like sweeping it under a rug to excuse the pain. That is probably a lot of what caused his Porn trouble to begin with. We seek relief through pixels and don't honestly deal with emotions and relationships in a healthy way. If you both are ever going to move past this, it must be talked about.

Anyone have any input??
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Again I am so so sorry you are experiencing betrayal and pain. It is a burden you didn't ask for nor cause. I hope you and your husband may find hope and healing.

Best of luck.