I've been having sex about once a week, is it still a struggle, if you are doing it more than that? My struggle is not seeing some of the visuals we see in P. My wife is very beautiful to me and I'm very attracted to her, but I can't always see the angles that we see in P. Also I want to kicktlick up a notch, but I've been kind of passive, but I know she is open. Once I see that I can succeed a little longer, I'd like to spice things up a bit. I have not had a chance to talk with her about NoFap yet, plan to on Monday. I want to rid myself of the guilt, shame, and doing it alone. Also want to be more focused on the hobbies I enjoy and family time. I know I need to talk with my wife about this for accountability and for her to know I want to change. She knows I've been depressed, and even myself I couldn't find the reason, but since coming here, I've found a lot of answers to my problems, I just need to follow through. It helps so much having a large group that is going through the same issues. I always wished my wife masterbated, never understood why she didn't, but now I realize that she's better off not having these issues,that have torn us down in many ways. Feels good to get these thoughts out there, thanks to anyone whose reading and going through similar issues.