Slip vs. Relapse Didymus slipped this morning. He has enough knowledge and experience to know that it was very different from a relapse. It was an isolated incident that was not premeditated and did not turn into anything more than an unexpected temptation given into for less than 2 minutes. Some people choose to reset over slips. Some do not. If a slip like this happens again Didymus will reset his clean time. He has taken precautions to prevent such mistakes in the future. Mistakes like that can lead to catastrophe and a binge. Bingeing that starts with a slip is a relapse even if it's not premeditated. I think I'm adjusted to the role of Didymus here and will no longer refer to myself in the 3rd person. Temptation will never go away. We must change how we respond to it. I hope to see results that guard against impulsive behavior through the braining training apps Peak and Elevate. Using them Monday through Friday. And Happify should help with keeping the mind out of negative thinking patterns. I must gather myself and am not sure when I will be back to ponder in this thread. Some time off is needed. But not from recovery. Just from thinking about the process.
Deep thoughts eh? Kind of Jack Handy-esque no? Who can heal better is my thought for today, those in search of profit and reputation or those who just want to live for truth and love?
ΔFosB: A sustained molecular switch for addiction Pretty groovy science to understand the bullshit that porn did to our brains and what is getting undid during the reboot. Doesn't focus solely on the plague but it is happening info man. I have a thought for today about the reboot wrapped up in this song How so? Have you ever been beat down and shit on by life?
My thoughts I shall share maybe once a month in here, cool tomatillos? Fried with beans then please. Everytime I choose to edge which is essentially fapping without wanting to immediately kill yourself with a "little death" but is still garbage for your brain and psyche it is because I choose to give into temptation. I am not addicted. I simply lack discipline and the heart to make the right choice. My monthly thoughts should reflect this.
Ok change of plans. Monthly thoughts will most likely be profile reflections posted once a month. Calendar alert set. What an interesting thread experience this was. Toodles. Wishes of wellness and contentment.