Edging to relapse

Today I couldn’t resist and edged from my own imagination. I knew that edging was bad so I went ahead and finished. Big regret was starting, I was able to get errections just by looking at women this time, and from the idea of their vagina and just healthy normal sex. As soon as I relapse I find my mind becomes flooded with the gay voice (I’ll call it for lack of a better term.) However it only lasts for a while after masterbating now. By gay voice I mean thoughts doubting my sexuality. I realized after this NoFap that’s it just anxiety around not being able to get an erection on command as I normally can after not fapping for a while. Three or four day streak this time only masterbated twice in one week which is very good for me. Next time I’m going for a full week... no if ands or buts about it. Cheers