Energy Amplification

Hi all, this is my first post ever. I'm currently on day 23 of my journey. Today I went jogging and it really amped up my testosterone. I've been feeling more aggressive and bold. It's worth noting that I do struggle with multiple sclerosis, which makes all of this significantly more challenging. At times I feel legitimately afraid that my loss of libido is mostly due to damage to my nerves and lesions to my brain than anything else. I struggle with pain daily which leads to higher levels of stress and anxiety. However, I have been recovering while on a Vitamin D protocol.

This is not my first journey. I've made it to 60 days "monk mode" before, but I quit because I bought in to the idea of being "cured". I was wrong. However, it did help because I gained experience and did go through a level of healing. One thing I discovered today is that I have the gift of energy amplification. I don't know if everyone on semen retention has this, but I can amplify everyone's energy. I used to feel super angry and annoyed by it, but now I see it as a plus.

What I discovered today is that I don't have a say in how people feel. I just amplify whatever they were already feeling before I arrived. This can get so intense that some people seem to feel very anxious and in a rush, while others just seem to feel very happy and pleased with my presence. Some guys say hello out of respect, while others act fearful and insecure.

Today, for example, I was at the grocery store and felt this wild surge in my aura. It was very powerful and energy was just pouring out of me like it was limitless. I was walking down an isle towards the cash registers when I suddenly passed this sissy of a guy. I guess the energy amplification was too much for him because he literally went out of his way to try to slam his cart into mine in a side swipe motion. However, I gave him this glare out of the corner of my eyes like I was going to kill him if he did so he avoided hitting me at the last second.

What would you guys have done? I honestly feel really f#ck*ng annoyed when I come across people like that. I honestly feel like smashing their skulls, putting their teeth on side walk and just curb stompping the sh#t out of them. I'm honestly really good at not acting on emotion so I usually remain calm, and walk away, but God, do I feel an inch away from just giving in.

I won't lie. I do have a tendancy to give in to aggresive attitudes and I can come across as aloof and maybe even incosiderate. But I'm just not big on emotions. I learned to get sh#t done even when I don't feel like it because I've struggled with suicidal ideation way too many times to keep count. I'm incredibly strong willed and disciplined, but sometimes I just feel like giving in to all the aggression. I do work out, but once again I struggle with some intense bouts of pain with this disease, which makes it very difficult to come across the way I want to.

I just want to know if anyone else is on the same page. Going through the same or similar thing. What are your experiences? Where are you in your journey? Any advice?

TLDR; Semen retention gives a side effect of energy amplification and some people go out of their way to try and cause me harm. I feel pissed when this happens and want to eradicate them. What are your thoughts on this?