Feeling discouraged

First some context: I'm a 26 yo virgin and started fapping around 12. Started to use internet porn when is was like ~15. Two years ago I was in a short-lived relationship with a girl but there was no sex. I haven't developed weird fetishes or anything but after I broke up with that girl I started to fap very frequently, however using less porn. I started nofap at the end of last year because I was getting closer to ED. First I did a ~40 days streak but it wasn't perfect because I edged occasionally (not to porn). That edging led to a relapse without porn. Unfortunately after the relapse I got on a downhill, I had many other issues in my life and it was too much to handle. Fortunately I didn't return to porn but was masturbating a few times a week.
During my first streak I beat my porn habit but got into a flatline and haven't really recovered since.
I started my second streak 30 days ago. In the first 2 weeks I've seen some improvement and sometimes I felt horny. But after that I fell into a flatline. I had very low libido, I was generally anxious and felt irritable, however I was having consistent morning wood. I had normal erections but only when I was thinking about something sexual.
My real problem is that I don't really feel anything towards real women. On very few occasions I feel attracted but can't really imagine that I'm having sex with them. I didn't even think about sex the last few days but felt very anxious so yesterday I tested how I feel about masturbation. It was really a forgettable experience, I didn't really feel anything and I had a weak orgasm.
Currently I feel really discouraged. I mostly have a very low libido, I don't really feel attracted to real women and my dick is lifeless. Despite these I totally forgot porn, I can get it up if I want and having morning wood almost every day but it's totally worthless if I feel asexual. Also most of the time I feel very anxious, I have low self esteem, I can't imagine picking up girls or a girl interested in me at all. I will be 27 soon and my life is in ruins. I don't know what to do but I know that I won't able to sit here waiting for the miracle and not seeing any improvement.
Do you have any advice? Or any thoughts on what should I expect if I continue this?
Thanks for reading though.

 

I don't count days from now on because I'm not even remotely interested in porn anymore and I'm binary about most things so there is virtually zero chance that I will fall back to porn. The bigger problem is my anxiety and depression and the fact that I used masturbation as an escape from those things. Rarely I get cravings but those are for real women and not just for sex, I just need the closeness of a woman.
But fighting depression and anxiety, getting rid all of those limiting beliefs is really hard, especially alone.
Also it is interesting that I feel something is going on in my head. Yesterday I suddenly forgot my ID for my online bank account. It was crazy because I just used it twice that day. I often have headaches and sometimes feel unexplainable tired.