Finally, Doing this. 30 Days. No PM.

So finally doing this. Why! A girl today asked me to show my #inch cock, as we were chatting. I said hey, no problem. So i removed my lower, and began to work myself to an erection. Saw some mild stuff, as wasn't able to get an erection. Had an erection(softy one), and came instantaneously.

Over the last year, I have had to stay at home because of certain issues, and my porn usage has exploded. I literally can't do it without porn. I have stopped having sex outside as no erections, and PE, (and oh God! I get so so many opportunities to do it).

I have been on/off this forum for a while now, and while I have always understood that my problems are porn abuse. I just could never get a handle on it.

Am one of those guys, who has PE and Dysfunctional cock at the same time (I do get erections, but its not the same.)

So here I am. 30 days challenge. NO P, NO M, No working my way to an erection, only be with real woman, and if I get an orgasm from them, good, otherwise cool. This will be my personal diary. I shall share my experiences everyday.

Day 0 today. Will end this thing on 10 March. Lets do this. Keep the questions coming.

 

Hey thanks D.J. You guys are welcoming.

 

I understand what you mean Mateo. Thinking back my porn exposure started around 2nd year of college, which is approx 4 years back. Over time, I had a great sexual life, and I continued porn. But shit hit the roof, when I had to go back home for some issue, and my sex life almost stalled that I really started using porn for my needs. As we all know, porn started turning weirder and weirder, and I had to resort to death grip approach to make myself cum. Whenever I had sex with a woman, I would cum in no seconds. Now, not do I cum early, I sometimes don't get a proper erection from a woman. This brought me more and more here, to search for answers.

And my solution is: Leaving porn for good. For 30 days(I don't want to take up an unrealistic challenge right now), completely porn free. No jerking myself to build an erection using audio visual techniques. After 30, I will reassess my state, and devise a future plan.
The ideal me would be 99.99% porn free, just a video here and there like in 2 months or so, and never jerking myself to a video.

I would love to know your opinion on all this.

 

Day 1 update: Went chill. Was deleting the randoms on Snapchat, insta, and God knows where. So saw little bit here and there, but you know that doesn't give me an erection anymore. I can sit infront of porn, and feel nothing down there. I always work my way to an erection, which is the root cause of my issue.

SO Day1 went fine. Let Day2 begin.

Tip for anyone reading this: Lets leave porn guys. I mean its good. But don't you think we can't those girls? We can, only if we move from virtual to reality. Lets work on ourselves, build a nice physique, develop hobbies and be successful in life. That is how we can have a fulfilling life. Girls(better than what we see online) will come. You gotta earn your stripes first. Lets get real in life.

 

Day 2 update: successful day. I remember getting a nice boner last night while asleep. Went to meet my gf today, had sex, although came prematurely. No porn usage, or masturbation.

On for tomorrow. Day 3 begins.

Thought/Tips: see what masturbation does to us. It makes us incapable of actual sex!! You can't even have the activuty to which you are masturbating to. So guys, be a man! And let go of porn. Start a new life, have a great sex life, remove porn.

 

Day 3 update: Urges have arrived. Finding it hard to resist, but hanging on. God Save me.

 

day 3 update: successful day. Urges have arrived. am trying to control and resist. Hopefully it will be fine.

 

Day 4 update: So guys, it was porn free, but i was sexting with a love interest of mine, and hence masturbated myself. I feel guilty. I don't know whether to restart it or not. I have been porn free. Totally.

I thought to myself, what is my ultimate goal. My ultimate goal, is being free from porn. I desire human intimacy, and interaction. Although certainly I should resist masturbating using my thoughts, I have decided I will continue my challenge.

Day 5 going pretty strong. No strong urges to watch porn. But very strong urges to masturbate. I am resisting it now. And hopefully, will get some action on the weekend. Lets see. Porn is completely out. 100%