Wow. You're quoting almost verbatim some of the things I said to my husband back in October in this most recent confrontation we've had about his porn use. He did such a good job getting over on me, I just didn't know who he was, and I don't trust that I do now. He has screwed my trust. As I want this marriage to work--there's a lot that's good about him and us--I hope, in time, that the trust comes back. I don't know what your husband will ultimately choose to do, or how your marriage will go. Heck, I can't even answer that about my own situation. But what I can tell you is, You're gonna be okay. You will get through this.