Finishing the 90 day and ending relapsing to pmo more and more

I done 3 - 4 months no pmo I had a long distance relationship and was doing no pmo for her ultimately with a vengeance for her I offered it for her and as I wanted to be better husband... eventually she ghosted me after doing the 90 days clean from pmo addiction and then started imo and then in desperation after another month still not watching porn I ended to pmo.... Did I resit the pmo addiction as I started again did the 90 days where useless that where done.. then again in August or September I regained some control managing the addiction trying... know i' m again in day 24 I use blocker(X) great app doing fine till know we take it yet one day at a time. Offering all this for someone and what I m doing for a special person in my life that I crazily love ...

 

True the neroplacticity done is made those 90 days unfortunately on day 25 I pmoed... But I did not like it and felt more motivation not to I pmoed again on day 26 - found porn disgusting but exciting.... It about what to normalise in the end and whether that make you happy and your concept of happiness what it means to you.