From Nothing To Worthy

Day 20 started.

in this age of information overload and midn programming ,I finally can say that nofap is a good path to achieve your goals.
It helps you to put a factory reset to your programmed behaviour set by modern world.
Once you are factory reset ,you see "Good as Good and Bad as Bad"
I also think my nofap journey differently nowadays.
Its because nowadays it is serious that how much media and government is creating a controlled news ,oppositiom etc.
They cant fool me anymore.
I cant accept what media tells me

No media cant taught me ,bad is good and good is bad.
I have opened my eyes.

Day 20!

Also sleep well, you may get illusion that you cant sleep without porn or masturbation thats just too much bullshit your mind is producing.
just listen to your cicardian clock before you want to sleep, it is easy to sleep without porn.
I just noise blockers though but a healthy sleep will help.

Also eat anything,those who blame food or meat/beef/chicken for their porn addiction need a mental hospital.
 
I think that my life is a crap.
whatever i do , i end up doing it terrible.
I dont even learn fast like others.
I just have that all defects into me.
I dont even hv friends to talk to ,nor I want anyone further.
Those who I find here just delete accounts too, I also am not able to study or anything.
like I am very much demotivated in life because of what is happening in my life.
Basically desensitised with life.

update : i hv got a mood to watch some alien documentaries maybe it will change my mood.
I wish i had money, i make music but no one watches my music.
I spent so much time on production but get 0 in return.
I m finished.
 
Man!
NoFap is giving me so much courage that I finally started those pushups and kicking again.
I have been exercising so much.
Niw its time for ind vs pak match.
I m enjoying the match so far.
hail nofap.
 
Relapsed couldn't hold it more.
Day 1 done.
No shame.
I was just 3 steps away from a month reboot.
But just admitting , I have start again gives me enough motivation to move in life.
That is why I choose nofap to be in boundaries and learn discipline and sane behaviour.
 
Bro let me tell you about relapses and hardmode.
Just don't orgasm, you go watch that shit, while watching. Observe yourself, be Mindfulness. Find a reason why you need to spill your semen on the floor. Find a good reason why these people fucking on screen care about you.
Fine, you watch that shit, watch it all, but find a good reason why you need to orgasm, what is porn filling in your life? You don't feel loved? You are not happy with your career?
The only flaw with hardmode is once you relapse, you hardwire back to the same porn, you chase then a higher high and is really really hard, because these porn urges are insane.
I tell you, I have in my memories like 20-30 videos, that I can remember anytime but they don't get me horny because I haven't had an orgasm on them for 3 months. If I go orgasm in one of them.. I will probably fall in a slow downfall and relapse every 7-10 days till I reach the daily relapse.
In july I did binge for 3 weeks for hours, I was some desperate addict, going to them, then quit, then cold shower, then watch again, then quit, then blue balls. It was insane.
I do get across soft porn daily and it doesn't trigger me, is just some idiots degrading themselves.
Be mindfulness, OBSERVE yourself in the act, you really really need to do this? Listen to the man in you, do you want a woman to just kiss you on her own and love for who you are? Why do you care about some bitches that don't care about your semen? They don't love you when you orgasm and they abuse you for their income. Porn is abuse, stop letting yourself abused.
It ain't about pushups, cold shower, some streak on calendar or some nipples om screen, is about standing for yourself.
Don't feel shame you watch that shit, feel shame you move your hand to your dick, that dick needs to be in a woman not in your hands.
Is hard to stop watching, checking, I have empathy for you. Is a learnt behavior, you are abused, probably have underlying traumas and it just fills that void, but you have to get your shit straight, do I orgasm alone in a dark room to some people having sex? Do these people mean anything to you?
Do not orgasm whatever you do. Best would be full hardmode, but if porn challenges, stand for yourself.
You think these bitches in porn are beautiful women? You think they understand the love concept? You think some body defines a true woman? What is a woman for you? Just a hole? Have respect for what a woman really is.
When you watch porn again, remember my words.
That woman doesn't love you.
She doesn't do any of that for you.
You don't matter to any pornstar.
She is probably a drug addict.
She is abused.
You are abused.
Love yourself
Put that dick in the pants
Walk away
Cold shower
Man up, your life is too short to cum on the floor because of some sellout bitches selling their ass.
 
Porn addiction is not coke addiction. Is mem stuck in the 10yo mentality when they see a pussy.
Porn addiction is about stop being a boy and start being a man, start saying no to masturbation and orgasm, what is gonna do porn to you? Stab you?
Find real male role models, learn from them, why they can have a family, why they don't feel nervous approaching women, be yourself, be you, because you are a good person, you deserve better!
You have to fight for it, like a man
 
Moscrac said:
Bro let me tell you about relapses and hardmode.
Just don't orgasm, you go watch that shit, while watching. Observe yourself, be Mindfulness
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I am trying meditation these days. I discovered that it is not just monk shit we are told to do , I listen to specific suggested hypnosis/ guided voice ,it affects me in a way I want but for that I need to be ready to be changed, so it's a new think on which I m working.
Moscrac said:
Find a reason why you need to spill your semen on the floor
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Yeah ,it's quite sad I do it , I have been corrupted by Satan . I used to be a very religious guy who caresd about God but I became atheist for 7 years ,I still have doubts and difficultly to choose religion, fear of atheism is that I hv nothing to stop me from porn but recent years I discovered God in my life , it takes experience to witness God work in your life , I believe he does exist and infact he really is good , I hv my arguments for that but it's a shame that I don't only betray God but society when I spill semen for no reason ,it's a coward behaviour, I m so mentally ill programmed by internet. I hope I get better I m trying.


Moscrac said:
What is a woman for you? Just a hole? Have respect for what a woman really is.
When you watch porn again, remember my words.
That woman doesn't love you.
She doesn't do any of that for you.
You don't matter to any pornstar.
She is probably a drug addict.
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May God give me eyes.
Oh my god help me to see a women as women.
Why do I forgot that I have sisters whom I respect where does the respect for when I watch porn.
Save me god .

Moscrac said:
It ain't about pushups, cold shower, some streak on calendar or some nipples om screen, is about standing for yourself.
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Yeah bro I will try my best next time
 
Light that candle and talk to god.
Don't need to read bible words. Just light a candle, say what is on your soul.
Atheism is religion, they BELIEVE god doesn't exists.
Have a real talk to god he will listen.
Read the book "it works".
Man up, this isn't about a new streak, is about fixing your relationship to god and become a man.

Sorry if I go rough on you. Is just love, respect that next time, you watch, you quit, suffer from blue balls. Orgasm is the big NO.
 
Guys,....... I m ok !
I m back.
I was ill from quite days ,so streak maintained and it's like day 4 or 3 but anyways I wl count as day 3.
My energy is ok.
Mood is ok.
Things r ok.
 
I am with you mate.
This thread of yours was inspirational. thank you... - i freakin mean it.

Just signed up, though i have been checking NF for 6 months now passively for different periods of time.
Today I went from desperate anxiousness to happy and back 3 times so it was challenging (whenever i did some phyiscal exercise i calmed back down while blasting EDM).
Lets not-fuck-up together!
 
PainAndPanic said:
am with you mate
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Thx man.
I have a good news for you Day 1 done like a man.
And I remained busy throughout my day, got college,talked ,walked and came home did some pushups and never had a bad thought, I even talked to girls in my college actually I had dressed well today so I was not shy to engage in friends convo, had some 5-6 min friendly convo and it went average, then at home did some relaxing meditation because the bus traveller + heat + my personal home workout and mma gives too much overload so meditation is necessary, now I will have dinner and I do late night study and in free time use Duolingo for new language or make some chiptune music. Or read some CIA papers or Jimmy Kimmel or congress fights lol.
I made it today. I made u proud.
 
my day sucked, and felt tempted...but we are through it!
i studied a bunch (but too late) and had an exam. i now feel anxious to see how bad the results are but obviously it will take weeks until then, so that messes with my head rn.
also spent too much time on yt
will go for a run now, and clean the messy kitchen.

shred75 said:
I made u proud.
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you really do man - thats a truly active and incredible day! i will strive for alike tomorrow.
i only realized quite late, that dressing neatly (or at least in a shirt that i truly like) boosts my confidence just a tiny but crucial amount in interactions with people. We got this!
If you care to share it here: what language are you learning?
 
PainAndPanic said:
If you care to share it here: what language are you learning?
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I m learning japanese. I completed section 1 though. It seems a good game, it teaches u basics. Also it's best for memory because science says learning new language improves and forms new connections in brain.

Yeah dressing good gives u confidence.
Very much, only thing I hate is a dumb college uniform lol.
And the nofap journey is going on good.
I remained at home today,no college, let's see how the day goes.
 
Day 3 about to start.
I m clean.
But I was unproductive throughout the day . My eyes are heavy, I will sleep, I m not motivated enough to write. I think I need more sleep . I was so less productive today. I felt shameful
See you guys I will take a nap
 
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