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StayClean&Proactive said:

This is the guy I’m talking about. His videos make me panic. I had to go to the mental hospital several times because I watched his videos.

I also watched his videos about IQ and I was convinced that I had a low IQ due to being on the spectrum so I crashed my mom’s car and blamed it on the fact that I had a “low IQ” which is what got me kicked out of her house.

Im not gonna lie I still think the girl I’m talking to is texting street dudes behind closed doors. So time is up for me as a nerdy black guy with autism.

That’s why I’m worried about my fate as a geeky black dude with autism. I might as well throw in the towel now and accept the fact that it’s over because I’m black and have autism
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Why do you keep watching these kinds of videos that damage and destruct your brain?
 
MikeSilva said:
Why do you keep watching these kinds of videos that damage and destruct your brain?
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I want to mentally prepare myself for when things go wrong. My current situation contradicts everything the blackpillers say. A black girl who’s accepting of the fact that I have autism and that I’m not a black stereotype. That shouldn’t happen according to blackpillers.

The guy in the video also claims you’re weak if you can’t accept the blackpill
 
StayClean&Proactive said:
I want to mentally prepare myself for when things go wrong. My current situation contradicts everything the blackpillers say. A black girl who’s accepting of the fact that I have autism and that I’m not a black stereotype. That shouldn’t happen according to blackpillers.

The guy in the video also claims you’re weak if you can’t accept the blackpill
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Yes, so he basically says that you should act as a victim, otherwise you are weak. This is the most nonsense thing I have ever heard. What a loser and a piece of shit talk. And how do you mentally prepare yourself when things go wrong by saying to yourself that you are lost and there is no hope for you? Like those black pill losers are saying.

Things go wrong, life goes wrong. It did and it will always happen to everyone. To you, me, and everyone else on this platform. You know how you can prepare yourself when things go wrong? By hardening your mind, by learning and by becoming better.
 
Things are going well with this girl I’m talking to. Things are actually progressing much quicker than I anticipated. I’m just waiting for god to ruin it though and to take this away from me
 
StayClean&Proactive said:
Things are going well with this girl I’m talking to. Things are actually progressing much quicker than I anticipated. I’m just waiting for god to ruin it though and to take this away from me
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Maybe if you stop insulting God and stop being so negative, things will actually go well for you
 
MikeSilva said:
Maybe if you stop insulting God and stop being so negative, things will actually go well for you
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Things usually go wrong when I’m optimistic. I believe I have PTSD that was induced from the pandemic. I panic to prepare myself for thing to go wrong so I won’t be hurt as much if they do go wrong
 
StayClean&Proactive said:
Things usually go wrong when I’m optimistic. I believe I have PTSD that was induced from the pandemic. I panic to prepare myself for thing to go wrong so I won’t be hurt as much if they do go wrong
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Don't bro, you attract negativism if your attitude is negative. Just enjoy the success for now ;)
 
MikeSilva said:
Don't bro, you attract negativism if your attitude is negative. Just enjoy the success for now ;)
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I’ll try my best to stay calm. I’m protecting myself from my spirit getting crushed if I get my hopes up.


It’ll hurt ten times more if I get my hopes up and things go wrong as opposed to being prepared for everything to be ruined.

I started crying because I’m mad at myself for not having as much money as I’d like to
 
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StayClean&Proactive said:
I have but I had to stop due to lack of time. I work five days a week. I will go back soon. I’m aiming for 3 times a week now as my school has a gym. I am still working on improving my appearance. I’m trying to grow dreadlocks, been growing my hair out for five months. I am a relatively decent looking guy. I’m not a “chad/tyrone” but I’ve been told I’m slightly above average looking. About a 5.5-6 in looks…..

I still think the manosphere stuff is blown out of proportion because I see so many regular looking even ugly guys with girlfriends who accept them for who they are. What I see in real life is almost nothing like it is in the manosphere. The only guys I know of that are straight up incels are autistic nerdy guys who are very socially inept and those guys are rare. They say that the rate of lonely men is increasing but I know far more guys who have had relationship experience than those who don’t.






I still am focusing on school. To be honest it’s a combination of both, I’ve noticed that I don’t get most things in life unless I go out of my way to get them. When I kickstarted my career as a comedian I didn’t “wait for the right opportunity” I had to get off my ass and go after it. Same applies for women, I’m tired of everyone claiming that “the right person will come when you least expect it”, that doesn’t always happen, sometimes you have to go out of your way to get what you want, even if it has to do with women. There was a guy who I used to be friends with who didn’t get his first relationship until he finally did something about it which was hop on a dating app and went through hundreds of rejections in order to finally find that one person who gave him a chance. I’m even friends with another guy who found his so on dating apps and they’re still together.

Also stop assuming that I’m not focusing on myself either, these past few months I have been focusing on bettering myself by going to school and busting my ass by studying hard as well as focusing on my screeenwriting (as I’d like to write for TV one day) and I’ve been making new friends and connections through my career as a comedian.

I wish people would stop telling guys “the right person will come along when you least expect it” because most guys would end up alone for life if they followed that advice. Sometimes God won’t let you have something unless you’re willing to fight for it.


Sorry to say this but dating apps exist for a reason. I’m still hoping things go right with this girl. I don’t want to end up being 30 with no experience.
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Okay, I’m just trying to be positive for you dude. Not trying to make any negative statements or anything. You need to chill and relax, it seems like you are so up tight with your self. I have a friend that has Autism and is on the spectrum a Nephew that is taking medication for his health and is on the spectrum . Which is improving him and making him more enjoyable at family events. My friend with Autism had a girlfriend he met from work for years. He is living on his own after his mother past away. It is possible.. I wouldn’t throw in the towel just yet man.
 
Mr. Unhappy said:
Okay, I’m just trying to be positive for you dude. Not trying to make any negative statements or anything. You need to chill and relax, it seems like you are so up tight with your self. I have a friend that has Autism and is on the spectrum a Nephew that is taking medication for his health and is on the spectrum . Which is improving him and making him more enjoyable at family events. My friend with Autism had a girlfriend he met from work for years. He is living on his own after his mother past away. It is possible.. I wouldn’t throw in the towel just yet man.
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That black pill guy on YouTube convinced me that it’s over for me since he’s mentioned how hard black men with autism have it.
 
I still spend a lot of time comparing myself to other black men and wondering why this girl is potentially choosing me when she could’ve gotten someone more masculine, someone nuerotypcial and even better looking than me
 
StayClean&Proactive said:
I’m just raising an eyebrow because my current situation contradicts everything those blackpillers and red pillers say.
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No, do not watch it period. Watch positive videos that fuel you up. Whether you like it or not but the negative shit poisons your mind whether you raise an eyebrow or not.
 
I still compare myself to other black men. Especially with how I see a lot of dudes on instagram who make gangster poses and dress with a lot of designer clothes. I keep thinking to myself; how the hell do I compete with that? especially being nerdy and having Asperger’s.
 
StayClean&Proactive said:
I still compare myself to other black men. Especially with how I see a lot of dudes on instagram who make gangster poses and dress with a lot of designer clothes. I keep thinking to myself; how the hell do I compete with that? especially being nerdy and having Asperger’s.
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Delete Instagram. Helped me a lot
 
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