have been watching porn

so i have been turning to some dating apps since quite some time so as to feel comfortable while trying to evade porn but i guess i end up watching and masturbating anyways.
also what I've noticed is that every time i watch porn or mastyrbate i end up loosing something or the other the last time i did i lost a very precious notebook of mine and quite recently i have lost a pair of keys that i had.
i've seen this phenomenon in the past too and i feel its coz of my low energies after the act that cause such things. also the memory gets affected
this is one reason that i will try to go for a thirty day period of abstaining from porn and masturbation altogether along with cutting off the dating app usage.
i guess its time to go for semen retention once and for all and observe some changes in my own self.


I'll be posting everyday from now on just so as to remind myself of the 1000 day goal that I've set for myself no matter how bad/good the day goes.