Help , I feel hopeless I don't know what happend to me

Maybe daily journalling can be of great help for you in the recovery proces.

 

Your way over thinking. I never had it this bad but just stop dwelling on it. Your Brain will look for answers to prove yourself depending on how you look at your situation. I see that your just freaked the fuck out so first stop using your phone idc if you need it for anything you need to let go of your phone for a few days. 2 stop confusing yourself your at an age we’re everything is weird and you can’t make your mind up just relax. If you like girls and have had relationships with them then I’d say your a normal person just like everyone else. Your addiction is the real issue here. It’s taken you down a spiraling path and if you don’t stop it’s going to pull you down further. Stop panicking, and pick yourself up. No one here can do it for you. We can give you all the advice but you have to take charge no one is going to do it for you. You have a choice. Either give up. Or Get up. Get up and start focusing idk if you have a dream but chase it if not find one. Find something to chase in life that’s worth chasing a new career a new faith. Talk to God if you need to idk if your religious but even if your not go to a church and just sit for a mass even if you don’t know what’s going on. God has his ways of healing. When I leave after mass I get this good feeling like I just helped someone. But I didn’t help anyone. In fact all I did was help myself. And that’s all you need right now. Take a look at yourself in the mirror. Do you see the person you want to be or are you happy. If chose the first one your most likely right. Don’t look at night as darkness look at night as a new beginning. You can do this alone and once you realize, nothing will drag you down or prevent you from doing anything. Just know you got this. You have to make the change stop letting these thoughts into your head you wouldn’t let a robber stay in your home so let go. Find something else to do or think about. if it pops up focus on something new eventually it will go away. Things take time my friend but doing it alone is worth it. God speed.