I spent over 1000$ yesterday on escorts, I feel disgusted with my self and I can’t believe I spent so much on this. I didn’t sleep and I spent the whole night pursuing escorts. I had a hard time getting an erection and I think from the years of porn addiction I’ve killed my sensation on my penis. Blow jobs felt like nothing to me and I can’t feel anything anymore down there. I realized that my years of porn and masturbation was just me looking for the end result, but when I do masturbate, I don’t feel anything on my penis. I’m on the verge of tears after this realization, I can’t feel down there. Can I reverse this? It feels numb and lifeless. I’ve always wanted a relationship, but how can I enjoy one when I can’t even feel my own dick? I’m just a lost man that wishes to have never found porn in the first place. I’m gonna go to a support group next week, after my therapist has been practically begging me for months to go. I think last night was the push I needed and I’m gonna get some proper help. im really tired and I can’t sleep so I’m just going to work on my car to get my mind off of things.