I feel disgusted

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JayA08

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I spent over 1000$ yesterday on escorts, I feel disgusted with my self and I can’t believe I spent so much on this. I didn’t sleep and I spent the whole night pursuing escorts.
I had a hard time getting an erection and I think from the years of porn addiction I’ve killed my sensation on my penis. Blow jobs felt like nothing to me and I can’t feel anything anymore down there. I realized that my years of porn and masturbation was just me looking for the end result, but when I do masturbate, I don’t feel anything on my penis.
I’m on the verge of tears after this realization, I can’t feel down there. Can I reverse this? It feels numb and lifeless.
I’ve always wanted a relationship, but how can I enjoy one when I can’t even feel my own dick? I’m just a lost man that wishes to have never found porn in the first place.
I’m gonna go to a support group next week, after my therapist has been practically begging me for months to go.
I think last night was the push I needed and I’m gonna get some proper help.

im really tired and I can’t sleep so I’m just going to work on my car to get my mind off of things.
 
Hello, Jay :emoji_hand_splayed::emoji_slight_smile:
I'll get straight to your questions.
Being PMO (porn, masturbation, orgasm) free cures porn inducted erectile dysfunction as well as numbness. I'm talking from experience. However, it may take some time, possibly months, it depends on a lot of things; i.e. for how long have you been using porn, how often, how long were your sessions, have you edged on all/most of those sessions, what is your overall physical health, are you physicaly active, are you smoking or having any other addictions, have you ever tried to start NoPMO before... you don't have to answer any of this here, it's just something you yourself have to take into consideration when dealing with PMO.
Now, this is not going to tell you anything as it's different for everybody, but for the sake of your own relief - at the time my PIED got completely cured I had been PMO free for 4 months while I had been a hardcore P addict for 8 years. I've relapsed on that streak unfortunately, and it's really easy to slip and experience PIED again.
So I'd recommend you to start your own streak today, right now, and get a grip of what's happening with your body, stopping being it's slave.
 
Wow, that's a lot of money, but I know of others who far outspend that. One consolation with my pathetic little PMO addiction restricted to free sites is that my being cheap helps me stay out of the hard-core stuff.
 
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