I lost my life and cant get it back

Your feelings are valid but they are just feelings. You can still live a happy and productive life even with the memory of what you did. It will only bother you as much as you let it.

 

Like I said, I went through the same thing basically. It is what it is bro. I’ll tell you, I felt bad about it and still do sometimes. it seems like you’re just trying to punish yourself or idk maybe believe that if you feel horrible enough it will confirm that you are actually not into the thing you did. You need to regain your self respect as a man plain and simple. go to the gym ,go out with real women, indulge in your hobbies, and read your bible. Go out in nature and eat good food. Listen to some bob marley “Don’t worry be happy.” You’re still living in this twisted porn world you created for yourself the only time you’ll be free is when you take action and force yourself to try and live again. You’ll find out it’s not that bad. No offense but if you want to gain respect , acting the way you are is the opposite of what you need to be. God is not happy with the way you’re acting and you’re not happy with yourself obviously. Like I said I was on the same boat just giving you the facts I had to tell myself as well.

 

Come on bro, her whole family saw it, She was labeled as a h*e in college, do you think you're situation is worse.

Alot of straight guys get involved in h*mo stuff which they regret, maybe you haven't met anyone so you think you're alone, youre not alone bro.

Life never stops it carries on, we make some regretful decisions along the way but what can we do except regretting them. we can't undo them.

Doesn't it make you feel better that you won't always feel this way, you are gonna get it over it no matter what, its a well known fact that everyone gets over grief/guilt/regret. Its just a matter of time

 

Well I’ve given all the advice I had I was in a similar situation so if you’re not going to listen to me idk who can help you man. I give you my prayers and well wishes dude I hope you find an answer.

 

Literally was a gros

Idk man I know how much the situation sucks I feel the same way as you. Just can’t let it have that much power.

 

I wish you strength and improvement, brother. I hope you look back on this time one day, from high up in a good place.

 

Whatever you did has you feeling like less of a man, right? ... crying and being depressed doesn't do anything. You need to ramp things back up.

1) Take a competitive type mental hobby, like chess or a competitive game
2) Move heavy weights around
3) Go on long walks and reorganize your mind. LATCH ONTO the disappointment and anger and put it into your walking pace.
4) Obviously eat healthy. Even 1 fast food meal can have a man feeling like a boy.

There are people who say you need to cry and let it out, but that stuff has never really helped me out. Just like with porn, you don't want to teach your body to have a womans/childs response to things. When a baby gets its toy taken away, it cries and cries. When a man loses his car, he figures out a plan to get it back/new one.

 

Bro listen, you made a mistake, All human beings make mistakes. Thats what makes us human. You acted out on a fetish and i am assuming that it was cross dressing/ same sex related. due to excessive porn once i had the same feeling, you know the role playing female ones but i quickly came to this forum and read stories that how excessive porn damages your brain and you have these fetishes, so i quickly went no PMO and stopped thinking about it. You went a little too far i agree but i have seen alot of posts where guys said they did cross dressing for years and they got used by other guys until they finally realized how bad it is, in that sense youre lucky that you did it once, you're only gonna have the memory of one incident not 100s of them, if those guys can recover then definitely you too can. I am not saying it will get erased from your memory, that wont happen I'll be honest with you, The mistakes we make don't get erased at all, i am telling you from experience. Its just that you will have a different outlook to it after some time. You won't feel the same way you're feeling right now, it won't bother you as much. You will gain back your self respect and self image, it will just be a memory, a bad memory nothing else, right now the wound is fresh but it will heal. Doesn't this thought alone make you feel better that you're gonna get better, You're very young and you got whole life ahead of you. You'll have a family. You'll live life to the fullest, this experience which you had, you'll probably shrug it off and laugh about it. just let this dark time pass.