I want to kill myself

If you are going through something, know that you have already been given the ability to overcome it. Even if you think you can't. This is something I've learnt and that helped me when I had similar feelings. Hold on brother

 

Take heart, dear one. You are not alone. It may feel dark. It may feel hopeless. Sobriety is a choice, and one made of strength. It's much easier to give up or give in than it is to fight for the life you want. Progression may be slow, but don't forget to meditate on the things you have accomplished. 30 days in... That must have taken a lot of effort. You have succeeded so far; you've tested your mettle and won.

Sometimes staring into the abyss can feel freeing. The freedom it offers isn't the kind that comes through hard-won effort. Most things in life worth having are hard to acquire. You've already got one in your 30 days. Keep fighting the good fight.

 

I care about you, and about every soul on here. I genuinely care and would love to see each and everyone here happy and healthy. Don’t think in this manner or allow your brain to entertain such thoughts. Life is not about being loved or accepted, it is not about women or money. It is about being righteous and happy. When the Lord is pleased with you that is when you will find actual self-fulfilment. The aforementioned are only perks/bonuses, not necessarily a part of the deal. Never take anything for granted. Find happiness in yourself. Do what’s right, avoid what’s wrong. Enjoy what you are doing and work on improving yourself, not for women or for anyone, but for your own self. Cheer yourself up and remember the countless blessings you have that millions upon millions worldwide dream about. Do this and you shall find real happiness my brother.

 

I know that feeling of when you feel like you just can't catch a break. The below is something I found on the NoFap or SemenRetention subreddit, can't remember which one. But either way, I go back and read it whenever I am having a bad day or bad stretch. I have it saved in my notes on my phone. It may help you too.
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Recovery isn't linear.

This is something I have to remind myself, especially on the bad days.

Unfortunately, one good day doesn't always lead to a better day the next. There will be ups, and there will be downs. Sometimes good days build off of one another, and you feel the progress, but sometimes something happens and you feel like you go backwards. You don't. You're still moving in the right direction, even if it doesn't feel like it at the time.

Just because today is worse than yesterday, doesn't mean tomorrow won't be even better than yesterday.

Stay strong, keep your head up, and take it one day at a time.
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I don't know you but you are a fellow Fapstronaut and by extension we are on the same mission, that is to become the best version of ourselves.

First, it's amazing that you want to follow your dream of making music, if you believe in yourself then take small steps every single day to get better at your craft. Don't let doubt or complacency stop you from chasing your dreams. Just try to be 1% better than you were yesterday. Keep practising. Not all of us are blessed with talent, most of need to work at it. As can you.

And about that girl who ghosted you, it happens man. Don't take it personally. Don't take it out on yourself. You are an amazing person and the girl who will be lucky enough to have you will receive the best blessing in the world.

You're 23 years young. There's plenty of time to become the best version of you man. Set clear goals. Set definite timelines. Write in a daily journal (with pen/paper) every morning or night. Continue to work on yourself. Chase your dreams my brother.

 

NEVER SURRENDER BRO

 

cope with ur guitar

 

Stay strong, God bless you. It will get better, trust me.

 

Forget them for a while.. try to focus on sth else, don't pay too much attention to them, act casually, random attitude..

Thoughts abt 'disappearing' also passed my mind, i'm starting thinking it might be normal for people like me.. Hahs
but i won't never have the gut to do it and i'm convinced it's silly
but sometimes i feel so depressy i've thoughts like that

Cheers mate!

 

You'll be, this are just times of trial
talking abt relief, there could be some options but choose wisely not to fall into another addiction
like do u have passion or sth..

These days for example, i prefer going out when i want 'relief' it's spring and beautiful out there!
or i just plunged into 'fiction' for awhile like 'wise good movie'

 

Have faith that everything will happen when it is supposed to. Try to enjoy being single now, although I know it is hard. I struggle with this too but positive thinking helps. There is a reason for everything, trust the process. After this pandemic I am sure that you will meet a lot of females and if you continue developing yourself you are going to be a good catch for them - if you are not one already!

Relationships are difficult, try to learn something from everyone - that helps dealing with negative emotions since you can look at situations in a positive way of growing. That helps for me at least.