So ever since i was addicted to porn i have never genuinely been excited or happy about something, whether that be at school or at home, i never wanted to go out, to the mall, to get food, or even at some points i was too lazy and unmotivated to even get a haircut from the barber. In short i was complete wreck, on top of that i started to notice a trend in the way i was thinking about just normal life, everything i thought of was bad, i would never think of the good things in my life, like two loving parents, six loving siblings, a nice home, a good education, many friends etc etc, i started to think i was depressed about a week ago(even though i really wasn't), i cried constantly for three days in row for no apparent reason, i would think of mildly sad thoughts like, my parents are at work most of the time, i never get to spend time with my siblings since they moved out etc etc. one thing i noticed whenever i actually did feel well and calm i would for some reason automatically think of something bad that happened in the past, or i would fear the future as well. And so one day i watched a video called Sadhguru meditation - How To Overcome Fear, Anxiety, Worrying and Stress it pretty much changed my lifestyle. one of the things he said that really helped me was when he said, " how come you have the strength to think about the bullshit but you don't have the strength to think about anything good." in another video which was talking about how to deal with insecurities he said "everyone is going to die one day", "and you can choose whether you want to die happy or die depressed" so i started to socialize with my siblings more, i was helping around the house while my parents were at work, for example i vacuumed the house, i cleaned up the kitchen, washed some dishes, just basic chores to reward myself later like a glass of soda. When my mum/mom came home she was happy, and that made me happy, i stopped masturbating and watching porn all together. I still get negative thoughts every now and then but i get a lot more good thoughts than bad, and that makes me feel good just writing that down. Another thing i wanted to mention was that i started to work out more, instead of being a mix between skinny af and a little bit chubby around the stomach area, i instead started to build muscle which also increased my self esteem. Share any similar stories below thanks for reading and good luck on your reboot!