I just feel so screwed. I quit PMO for good a little while ago, maybe a month or two - I stopped counting. I've been trying for years and finally kicked it and have no interest in porn or anything else for that matter. Which is the problem. I don't remember the last time I watched porn but I have a spotty libido and spotty sex drive since quitting. When I am with my girlfriend, I have the drive to kiss her and get intimate with her, (touching, kissing, rubbing, etc.) I am able to get somewhat erect from this. These erections are never fully hard (as compared to what I achieve from porn) and they don't last. The longer I'm in flatline the more dead down-there feels. I obviously want to go further with her and so does she but this whole thing terrifies me. I've talked to her about not being totally comfortable with sex right now and she says it no big issue and that she didn't get in this relationship because she wanted sex. (we are both kinda looking for serious partners, not just randomly dating.) I still can't deal with the fact that she wants sex and I feel like a selfish asshole that I'm in flatline and physically not aroused by anything at this point. I don't even really care when she takes her shirt off and have to pretend that I'm like crazy horny. I have considered ordering ED medication through an online prescription so that I have that as a backup but just do not know what to do. I also suffer from performance anxiety as I am not very sexually experienced. My girlfriend isn't either but it doesn't seem to help my stress regarding sexual activities. This is what i get for being addicted to porn, but now my actions are affecting other people I care about and I hate myself. I'm hoping that there are ways that I will be able to achieve a strong erection during flatline but I just don't know if that's the case. Has anyone else had this problem and can share some wisdom? I will answer any questions anyone has I'm just so struggling right now.