Is this normal?

Hey all

Keep getting a 3-5 day streak. Is this timeline typical?

Day 1 - Feel regret, shame, misery etc. - But also optimism and belief i can do it this time.

Day 2 - Fighting chaser effect but feeling focused and less shame

Day 3 - Urges start, loss of perspective, end goal seems less important, happier in general, constant urge to fantasize or have P flasbacks

Day 4 - Much the same as Day 3 etc

Is this pretty normal? Does it get easier? I find it so hard to get past the urges on day 3 especially if I think about P. My record is 7 days and I'm sure there were less urges. If i think about P it leads to edging which is game over.

 

Thanks man. Yeah in the day I'm usually OK those thoughts come and I immediately stop them. Its almost like a game i'm playing with my mind. After about 20 mins my brain gives in and I feel better for it. The problem is my weakness is in bed at night around the day 3 mark.