JOIN ME: The Start of Something Great

8 days in congratulations my man, feeling any different?

We all have great potential but it's up to us to have the courage to believe in ourselves. Lets do this!

 

We got this dude. 5 days strong keep at it

 

I was so far gone from reality because of my addiction, so numb to anything and everything anyone and everyone. So lost. This numbness negatively effected every single aspect of my life.

But with consistency to nofap, this numbness began to go away and i would begin to see the world again. Unfortunately this meant that i had to face reality, the good and the bad. And for me there was a whole lot of bad. The hole i dug for myself was so deep i couldn't see the light and going back to watching porn was so easy. I must admit that i've tried and failed to stop my addiction countless times.

Recently though, i went almost a month straight of nofap, my longest streak ever. That experience taught me a very important lesson. You must always seek the truth.

At the beginning of this month, for the first 20 something days for me, it was like you said "torture". The first week it was just torture because my urges to just give in were so strong and i felt so weak. After that, my intelligence and senses grew more keen, I was beginning to feel stronger. I still had urges but i knew they were just old stupid bad habits of my brain and that i was done and on to something better. But after feeling numb for so long, and finally "feeling" again, reality began to hit me in my face. I felt like i was going crazy. Truths of my existence began to hit me in overwhelming waves. Every night i would cry, sometimes a fit of rage would go with it too, or sometimes i would even laugh maniacally like i was the joker or something.

I knew though that these were just temporary effects of facing harsh realities during a sensitive stage of recovery and i knew that even though i feel like i'm going crazy i must stay dedicated to nofap and continue to face reality, despite how harsh or depressing it may seem, and stay positive. And i was right. Before i relapsed i felt completely changed. I began to have dreams again, i began to have a lust for life again, i began to have the courage to want to fight whatever was negative in my life. Everything changed, i truly transformed.

I did relapse though, about 4 days ago. Most days i would stay busy but this particular day i didn't do anything but play videogames and watch youtube all day and i caved out of boredom. But it was quick and i didn't even enjoy it. As soon as it was over i knew it was the last time i ever jack off to porn. And i think thats because all those crazy nights i went through changed me.

So rejoice in the torture! If you stay dedicated that torture will change you in ways i can't even describe. Just see for yourself.

 

Nofap is more than just learning self control and experiencing the scientific positive effects

 

Please pardon all grammar errors. I mean well.

 

You might've just made my day Arima ☺

 

It might get worse before it gets better. We're only in the beginning days... stay strong my friend

 

And this website helps man, but at the end of the day its all in you. Stay dedicated to nofap and i think you'll realize that more and more. You have the power

 

Going on to my 6th day. I'm broke, out of shape, haven't talked to my friends in forever, don't have a job, didn't go to school this semester, and more but honestly it doesn't even phase me. I'm just thinking about how to fix these things and how to make my dreams come true.

I know that if i can change myself and defeat this addiction, then i can do ANYTHING

 

And i'm not just thinking, im doing.

Hard work baby

 

Day 10 man your gaining some momentum!