Journal of beating PAWS/Flatline!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by sikreodds97, Aug 13, 2020.

  1. Anonymous86

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    That's so weird that your PAWS won't lift, but you get erections? So strange.
     
  2. sikreodds97

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    Yeah it doesnt seem to have any correlation to me personally. Its so depressing to not know whats going on, am i gonna waste my entire life staying like this? I have hopes and dreams, but when im not feeling love or cant feel emotions its hard to function in society.
     
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    Day 292: Was close to a relapse yesterday. Have doubted this journey so much. Had to go back and remember that ive actually had good days once in a while. And superpowers during my first streaks. While it may be a mix of weed and pmo PAWS and maybe some underlying shit, its absolutely crucial that i KEEP doing strict semen retention and work with myself in other ways to recover and feel like a human again. Life is a challenge and i have chosen to play it on hard mode, and its gonna be fucking rewarding when i will boss this game. I know i will, i just know it. And i cant wait. More motivated than ever, lets go!
     
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  4. MeTP

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    The darkest hour is always before the dawn. Relapse will not change anything. Be careful with weed at this stage.
     
  5. Jasmeet

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    Wait? What the hell? Are you the same Sikrreodds from Reddit, who used to post his success stories in Reddit and how he came out of tbe flatline?
     
  6. Jasmeet

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    What happened to you bro? I'm just over 200 days in and have a mild flatline. Someone on Reddit made a whole pdf file of your posts and I always tend to read it whenever I need inspiration. Would love to hear what happened bruv
     
  7. MeTP

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    This is not the same guy, he just took his nickname.
     
  8. Jasmeet

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    Lol why? Why would anyone do that? Did he explain in previous posts on why he chose that exact name?
     
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    I took that username because he is my inspiration and motivation
     
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    Day 298: Been sick so been feeling pretty bad in terms of anxiety and depression because of stress on my body. Feel a bit better today and had morning wood when i woke up which i sometimes have. Lets keep going
     
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    Day 305: So confused. Last night im pretty sure i unconsciously MO'd. Or else it was a very vivid dream. What can i do... That fucking sucks, and i had relapsed in my underwear so i know something happened. Just sucks when you havent even got control over when you masturbate.. Maybe it was a very vivid dream, who knows
     
  12. Anonymous86

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    Wet dreams can't really effect your progress though.
     
  13. sikreodds97

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    I know, i dont really care for wet dreams. But i have vivid memories about me MO'ing in my bed half conscious. But again it could have been an extremely vivid dream. If i mo'd myself off to orgasm that would defiently halt it all a little bit more
     
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    Day 306: Feeling better today. More confident higher testosterone for sure.
     
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    Day 321: Had a huge wet dream, lots of triggers yesterday.
     
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    Day 346: Nearly a year. Still feeling bad everyday with depression and anxiety.This is sadly just my life now, dont know what happened. I had a small window like a week ago, 1 hour before bed feeling "warm" and better, and my sleep was really good with vivid dreams and i woke up laughing and feeling good. However it didnt last for more than 12 hours, but its something.
     
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  18. Yeah withdrawals could come back n forth. They could show up even after a week of disappearing.
     
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    Day 356: Almost 1 year! Im proud of myself even if i dont feel like it. Im stronger than i think even tho my conscious mind wont believe it.
     
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    Day 393: 13 months. nothing has changed, suffering everyday. I just dont get why it had to happen to me. Everyone heals except me apperenatly. I feel like hell everyday :(
     
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