Yeah I’ve had those hypomania days they’re rare and don’t happen frequently. I had one day earlier in recovery where it felt like I was on MDMA listening to music. I still have no arousal and a little bit of ahedonia and like you minor lingering symptoms and weak erections.
The problem I have is that porn is the thing that keeps terrible anxiety at bay. It dissipates the panic but then I feel so lousy afterwards; depressed, ashamed, knowing that I've let my family down. Taking hours away from work and family time just to try and keep anxiety away is clearly just trading in one demon for another. It's just a big cycle of doom. So I'm going to ride the panic attacks this time and try and use exercise and music to beat this thing. I lasted several months once but then had bad news about my health and relapsed. I'm determined not to let that happen again. All I want is to get back to having a healthy mind and I know there's a fight ahead.
I have more or less been in a permanent flatline for years because of intermittent fapping and binging and am still flatlining at 18.5 months. Things are looking good I hope and believe at two years to worst will be behind me. Feel more functional than I have done in a long time.
Extra: 1- Poor assessment of risks, dangers (Not studying for an exam but feels OK) 2- Lots of frustration, preferring setting and being sad instead of trying and working to solve problems. 3- Feels like everybody is rude to you, while they are not 4- Criticizing everything, even if it's minor.
Bro, exactly same happened to me.i feared that it was heart attack.my ecg and echo reports were normal.docs gave sleeping pills and advised me to meet a psychiatrist.then i started nofap but relapsed on 40th day and another massive panic attack hit me.i faced it and confessed to God.And i accepted my death.its been 30 days now from that attack.meanwhile i had minor attacks and two flatlines.
Does anyone get akathisia like symptoms from Nofap? I mean those real weird sensations that make you want to cross legs, than stretch them, then cross them again, etc. Also feel it in my back now and then. Often comes with a knot in my stomach and fear/anxiety for no reason
Sounds like Moro reflex, it is a primitive reflex. "This is sometimes referred to as the startle reaction, startle response, startle reflex or embrace reflex. It is more commonly known as the Moro response or Moro reflex after its discoverer, pediatrician Ernst Moro. The Moro reflex is present at birth, peaks in the first month of life, and begins to integrate around 2 months of age. It is likely to occur if the infant's head suddenly shifts position, the temperature changes abruptly, or they are startled by a sudden noise. The legs and head extend while the arms jerk up and out with the palms up and thumbs flexed. Shortly afterward the arms are brought together and the hands clench into fists, and the infant cries loudly.[10] The reflex normally integrates by three to four months of age,[11] though it may last up to six months." Or bad side effects from yoga/meditation.
I hoped so you are not infant! Those reflexes can resurface after brain trauma, as I read. Akathisia is a movement disorder characterized by a feeling of inner restlessness and inability to stay still.[1][4] Usually the legs are most prominently affected.[2] People may fidget, rock back and forth, or pace.[5] Others may just feel uneasy.[2] I thought about moro, because you said you want to cross your legs, then strech them!
There's many forms where akathisia can express itself in. The movement part is not that prominent with me. You can find many, many stories on www.benzobuddies.org with varying degrees of seriousness. The symptoms (and the seriousness of them) I find on that website are much closer to what I am experiencing than what people are describing on this forum. But then again, my porn use has been extreme in the way I abused it with hour long edging sessions etc. But still I hope some day I will find more people like me who have (had) these kinds of serious symptoms without ever having touched a benzo. There are some symptom lists of people on here that come close, though. Like yours, Big Lebowski's and SleepisLost's. As I have these symptoms that are 95% like benzo withdrawal without ever having taken a benzo, I am looking for more stories like mine. It's a very hellish path to walk alone without being sure it's "just" withdrawal from PMO edging.
Dizziness that feels like you're being pushed around by other people. It's definitely PMO related as when I PMO or watch sexually stimulating stuff it goes away for a while but returns a day later worse than it was prior to watching.
A uncontrollable and weird belly discomfort, followed by this wild need of PMOing... I don't know if anybody else feels this, but sometimes it's really difficult not to give in to it.
- Anxiety (especially during the evening/night) - Depression (nothing matters) - desperation (feeling like i'll never be able to get through this)
hi bro i know this post is from 1 year ago but i found it interesting cause many people don't mention some of the withdrawal symptoms you mentioned but i want to sort out -agoraohobia - ears cracking and popping, tinitus - social withdrawal, isolation, social awkwardness - physical tension, especially around the head, in the arms and legs - slow digestion - multiple food intolerances, weak immunity - low body temperature, cold extremities i always had these symptoms and i just want to know if this symptoms went away and in which day or period did they go away and how are you feeling now overall
