Hey man, I can really relate to your story! Also about 3-4 years ago I was heavily into transwoman porn, I still battle with it though. But as a result of that I also acted out many times with transwomen, I also feel like it has scarred and I do still obsess about it from time to time. I have had a girlfriend since then and it did help me for a while but the shame and the guilt cam back. I just hope that in time we can heal from what we have done to ourselves. Stay strong mate!!