This is so weird...
Let me start off by saying that I know no one like me. I have been addicted to masturbating since middle school, I have to do it everyday and it has only been getting worse. The reason i cant get help is because... well.. im a girl.
As a 20 y/o women i have a problem where in the morning, if i dont get out of bed early enough, i just masturbate the day away.... yes.. i mean like 8 hours of masturbation. I try my hardest to leave the house and go anywhere in public or surround myself with people because i dont feel the urge then (as it being extremely inappropriate overpowers the urge) but lately it have been feeling the urge in public and i have to draw the line. I even have thought about removing my clit because this is not worth a life of isolation.
I guess it has been so hard because i have been living with my boyfriend and have a very easy schedule (i do not have classes most days) so when he leaves there is nothing to stop me from wasting the day away. The worst part is that I have actual ambition to do more with my life and this issue just kills me to my core because its the only thing getting in the way of what I want to do. for me, i love sewing, but that means that i would have to motivate myself to work for long hours in my home with my sewing machine without anybody checking on me. I want to be independent so bad but i feel like i will never be able to own my own business or do anything if i cant get out of my bed.
moral or the story is i dont know what to do i think masturbating is my way of dealing with anxiety of failure, need for procrastination, fear, and idk.
this whole thing is just so strange to me, i have no problems with my boyfriend, no deep set issues with sex (or at least i hope, jesus) or anything like that.
I dont know what to do! I need advice!
Let me start off by saying that I know no one like me. I have been addicted to masturbating since middle school, I have to do it everyday and it has only been getting worse. The reason i cant get help is because... well.. im a girl.
As a 20 y/o women i have a problem where in the morning, if i dont get out of bed early enough, i just masturbate the day away.... yes.. i mean like 8 hours of masturbation. I try my hardest to leave the house and go anywhere in public or surround myself with people because i dont feel the urge then (as it being extremely inappropriate overpowers the urge) but lately it have been feeling the urge in public and i have to draw the line. I even have thought about removing my clit because this is not worth a life of isolation.
I guess it has been so hard because i have been living with my boyfriend and have a very easy schedule (i do not have classes most days) so when he leaves there is nothing to stop me from wasting the day away. The worst part is that I have actual ambition to do more with my life and this issue just kills me to my core because its the only thing getting in the way of what I want to do. for me, i love sewing, but that means that i would have to motivate myself to work for long hours in my home with my sewing machine without anybody checking on me. I want to be independent so bad but i feel like i will never be able to own my own business or do anything if i cant get out of my bed.
moral or the story is i dont know what to do i think masturbating is my way of dealing with anxiety of failure, need for procrastination, fear, and idk.
this whole thing is just so strange to me, i have no problems with my boyfriend, no deep set issues with sex (or at least i hope, jesus) or anything like that.
I dont know what to do! I need advice!