Losing grip of my ideal self

Rugrathecutest · Dec 17, 2023

I'm in a good place right now and currently on 73 days without pornography. There's something I need to improve on now, it's my masturbation habits. I did have some success not too long ago with no masturbation but it's all gone wrong. It went from once a month to once every 7 days to once in a calendar week to every few days. I'm going back to old habits, but I must say that it's nowhere near as bad as before. I no longer masturbate to porn or imagine anything sexual to get me going, I'm simply horny. I'm confident that I got my pornography addiction taken care of, what's left is the masturbation. After 3 or so days I get overwhelming urges. I'm losing the control I had recently. I want to stop masturbating for 2 months to see how I feel. I'm sick of being horny and going back to old habits. This is my self-improvement, to stop obsessing over anything sexual, that includes masturbation for me. Not sure how long I want to stay away from masturbation for the long term, all I know is I want change.

possiblyLifeChanging · Dec 17, 2023

Hey greetings.
First of all i wanna clarify that this is my opinion and by no means MUST be followed, just some advice based on long term thinking and experiences.

I think that you might not haven't trully setted your logical course of action. I haven't seen your age but you have probably been around for a while to get addicted to PMO just as most of us. Assuming the reality which is that most of the people nowdays just get their faps to get rid of their lust and you want to stop watching porn... You should ask WHY?

My conclusion was that in the world we live nowdays we HAVE TO DO lots of things we didn't before. Too much obligations, dutys, must, must, must... So in the end one's will get bended and starts adapting their preferences to match what one "must do".

MUST DO is a good concept but only if followed by a DRIVE.
If you glance deep inside you there's still the person that wanna watch porn. There's still one that wants to fap... You should ask WHY?
What i mean to say is that you are accustomed to watch porn when you are horny and probably fap if you can't stand the urges. You just happened to think that masturbating would be healthier without porn... But even in that sentence you might consider that porn ranges from big busty unrealistic actresses to real couple lovely intercourse.

SO IN THE END__________
In my opinion you should reconsider what you trully believe in, drives you and carry you throught the struggles of getting rid of an addiction. The real root of your problem should be to decide or find your root drive so you wouldn't even think about masturbating in the first place and hence watching porn should seem unrealistic... Almost like a nasty thing to do

I talk from experience in that sense. I got a real drive and lost it several times due to external factors but for sure the solution comes either as that dish or a more extreme course of action such as doing hypnotizing therapy that has been proved to work for smokers.

Wish you luck in your endeavor

Rugrathecutest · Dec 18, 2023

possiblyLifeChanging said: ↑

Hey greetings.
First of all i wanna clarify that this is my opinion and by no means MUST be followed, just some advice based on long term thinking and experiences.

I think that you might not haven't trully setted your logical course of action. I haven't seen your age but you have probably been around for a while to get addicted to PMO just as most of us. Assuming the reality which is that most of the people nowdays just get their faps to get rid of their lust and you want to stop watching porn... You should ask WHY?

My conclusion was that in the world we live nowdays we HAVE TO DO lots of things we didn't before. Too much obligations, dutys, must, must, must... So in the end one's will get bended and starts adapting their preferences to match what one "must do".

MUST DO is a good concept but only if followed by a DRIVE.
If you glance deep inside you there's still the person that wanna watch porn. There's still one that wants to fap... You should ask WHY?
What i mean to say is that you are accustomed to watch porn when you are horny and probably fap if you can't stand the urges. You just happened to think that masturbating would be healthier without porn... But even in that sentence you might consider that porn ranges from big busty unrealistic actresses to real couple lovely intercourse.

SO IN THE END__________
In my opinion you should reconsider what you trully believe in, drives you and carry you throught the struggles of getting rid of an addiction. The real root of your problem should be to decide or find your root drive so you wouldn't even think about masturbating in the first place and hence watching porn should seem unrealistic... Almost like a nasty thing to do

I talk from experience in that sense. I got a real drive and lost it several times due to external factors but for sure the solution comes either as that dish or a more extreme course of action such as doing hypnotizing therapy that has been proved to work for smokers.

Wish you luck in your endeavor
Click to expand...

I got a drive for not watching pornography. I don't want to rely on pornography to masturbate, I don't want to sexualize everything, I don't want to see women as objects, I want to be more productive with my time. Those things are what got me so far in my reboot. I don't think I have a drive for not masturbating at the moment. I wanted to move away from it to see if anything changed and at least stop doing it so regularly. Not very powerful. You're right, I should figure out if there's a drive and also ask myself why I want to change. Thoughts?

Log in

Losing grip of my ideal self

Rugrathecutest Fapstronaut

possiblyLifeChanging Fapstronaut

Rugrathecutest Fapstronaut

Share This Page