Monk Mode Day 6 - Closest call ever [#hazed]

So yesterday I was very productive. I was killing it. Towards the end of the day I had a big family dispute and I noticed just being around negative people has a big effect on my progress in NoFap. The whole dispute led me back to the internet and I spent a long time on YouTube just trying to forget what happened and then today I nearly relapsed after edging for a few hours. So all in all it was a very close call and some could say that I fucked up. But quite the contrary.

I edged. But I stopped myself, and made a conscious choice to continue my progress on this journey. Now I do feel the effects and I have tested this in the past fully relapsing after an edge does not make you less worse, edging is more of a little setback. If you catch yourself edging people, make the conscious effort to stop. I find that instead of rationalising that oh I might as well O since I already did the PM, and choosing to stop when you are dead stuck in that haze - means you are making a declaration to yourself that you are going to do this. No matter what!

Anyway, continuing monk mode, going to push myself to do things even though I feel abit brainfoggy and drained after that whole binge after an argument with the fam. And most importantly I'm going to prepare for shit like this again and prevent it from the future. Regardless, this was not a relapse and I'm going to keep going full throttle monk mode. PEACE.

 

Man I am so happy to hear that man! Yeah man its way better to make a declaration to yourself, because you are telling yourself you WANT to make a difference. Also, through my experience.. I tested that to see whether you felt better after edging and going for the full pmo. And comparatively with today, I can tell you now its bullshit. Orgasming after edging is not the way to go. It makes you feel like shit and you re-establish the addiction loop, but stopping after your edging is tough and for the rest of the day you want to kick off where you left off. But the brain fog and lack of motivation dies quicker, and you build a sort of new mental strength - to overcome the haze. So keep that in mind if the haze comes up again peace !

 

I understand where your coming from and that may be true for you but I believe that jumping out of the haze is a really important step in someone's NoFap streak. Ever since I have, my awareness to my urges to edge has increased, and I know in a few weeks I'll be looking back saying thank god I didn't O. I already edged yesterday the statement I made to myself was I didn't finish the deal. There was no reward to it.

 

I definitely don't think its okay, and I agree with your analogy. For the record I know edging is worse than usual pmo but not orgasming after you've realised you've already edged is what I'm talking about. I never aim to edge or even look at porn for that matter, hell I'm doing monk mode haha.