Personal Videos

I have been on and off NoFap for awhile now. My main goal at the moment is to quit masturbating to porn. I don't think masturbation is a bad thing and my goal has never been to quit masturbation/orgasm. However, I think a big reason I have some of the ED issues with women is because of my addiction to porn. It has been the only thing that got me off for a long time.

With all of that in mind I had quick thought/question. I haven't watched "porn" in about 7-8 days which is great! I had a sexual encounter with a past fling last night. We filmed it because we are both into that sort of thing. Is it a relapse watching my own content? In my own head I justify it because its myself in the video and thats as realistic as its going to get.

What do you guys think?