Prowling toilets and gay hookup places

Have you started liking men through their face ? I mean indentyfying the x factor through face ? Or just the dick excites you ?

 

Hey man just stay in there with NoFap. It can take months for your addiction to go away. Whenever you find your mind drifting or fantasizing, find something to make yourself busy, stick a video on your phone and focus on that or something.

And in regards to your sexuality, porn can have a huge impact on it. If you're attracted to women and suddenly find yourself having gay thoughts alongside gay porn, then it IS porn-induced. The vanilla-gay porn pipeline is pretty well documented on this site, a lot of us have been through exactly what you're going through, and it's the end result of your brain needing more and more dopamine to reach the same highs so-to-speak, so you escalate into more and more depraved porn. Hang in there buddy

 

Sean Edie,

I experience the same thing but I am married. I struggled in college with whether I was gay or not but finally came to the conclusion that I desire relationship with women, just sexual need with men. There are several reasons for this that I would share privately if you wish.

Bottom line for me, I’m still fighting this battle. I relapse badly for a few days and then am fine for a month. I’ve recently gotten into the idea of semen retention and am really excited by the results. Just stopping going to rest areas or watching gay porn was not doing it for me. This site wasn’t doing it for me but this idea of semen retention (even if it is not all scientifically based) I can tell you I feel much more masculine and strong.

Search that on YouTube and you can find some great thoughts there. It’s helping me right now and I hope it helps you.

 

Man, you're not alone here. I also had gay experience due to porn.
PORN MADE ME to try GAY sex.

of course i dont like man, there are not attractive to me, i dont fantasize about man, i dont imagine myself to kiss a man or be in a relationship with one. However porn made me want to have sex with other man.

Stop watching porn and never come back to it again. I started my joruney to heal myself from porn, pmo, PIED, gay sex thoughts etc.

I can already tell after week of not PMO - i havent thought about gay sex even once... but i just had too much time and logged into site with sissy / porn shit and well... old stuff came back. It's PORN that made you to do it,

STOP NOW and you will see the effects. You can follow my journey over here: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/getting-away-from-kinky-stuff-and-pied-at-36.270103/ and see my progress as motivtion for you as well.

 

I can also relate to these posts/shares. I was molested by a boy when I was 8 along with porn, I've been in an altered path since. I believed you played sexually with a boy not sports. I had my self worth based in my cock not other abilities. When I'm triggered by something I get S.A.D. which for me means I want to suck a dick. It can change and get better but the struggle is still there. I have to accept when I allow myself to get away from recovery and ignore HALT BS I'm at more risk. I'm not proceeding expecting the desire to be totally gone, rather not be in control. I am worth recovery, dammit. I am better than to crap I used to watch, fantasize over then trade great potential to do crappy things. I can do this, you can do this.

 

Hey there, I can totally relate as well. I am straight but became addicted to gay porn, which escalated to chatting with other guys on various apps/sites. And recently I had an in-person encounter with another guy, which was a major wake up call for me. Would love to talk more..feel free to send me a message here.

 

I have the same issue. It drives me nuts just how much these weird encounters excite me. Recently fell really hard when I started feeling things I never wanted to for a guy. I don't know where this leaves me. Still working through...

 

I share struggle with this too

 

Well, I have always been attracted to men. I enjoy straight porn but I have never desired to actualize it.
Maybe I am wrong but I feel like some of guys in this thread are in denial.
My advice quit porn, gay or straight, if you still find men attractive, don't be hard on yourself.

 

A voice of reason in a sea of denial. I'm also gay and have watched a lot of str8 porn. Watching str8 porn has never enticed me to try the other bus route. In 2020 it saddens me deeply that we still have these kind of conversations where the thought of being Gay horrifies someone. Be kind to yourselves. As you say VictoryIsOurs, quit all porn and if the feelings persist then celebrate the fact you've learnt something about yourself. It's all good!

 

I am sure that people who share the view that guys on this thread are in denial mean well. However, I fail to see how it could be considered helpful to accuse someone--someone who is vulnerably sharing their story--of being in denial. The replies on this thread are quite brief; we're getting such a small window into someone's journey. Why do you think you know someone better than they know themselves? I totally understand that this thread might be confusing and upsetting to read for a guy who identifies as gay. This thread is not about you. We value your voice and your perspective, but we are not looking for your judgment or your diagnosis; we're looking for your support and your story. I'm only speaking for myself here, but being straight and addicted to gay porn isn't troubling because I'm homophobic or anything like that. It's not that I think being gay is wrong; I think it's wrong for ME--I have had experiences that tell me that I do not actually enjoy this thing I thought I had wanted. It's troubling because, through addiction, my authentic sexual desire was changed, and changed in a way that does not align with who I see myself to be, a way that does not satisfy. I completely agree with the advice to quit porn--it's the only way to reset.

 

Well, i neither consider the thread confusing nor upsetting and I would rather make someone feel encouraged not offended.
The truth however still remains, there are people who are out there beating themselves for having gay feelings. I was pointing my point to that person. But still bottom line is quitting P here, period.

 

I'm sorry you feel that way about my post. I never meant to cause harm to anyone. I did say in my comment to be kind to yourself and it's all good. And that was my underlying message to the original post. Don't panic about your sexuality, there is enough in this world to panic about right now. Deal with the P and the rest will fall into place.

 

YouTube has a lot of free hypnosis that helps with this

 

what kind of hypnosis? TO heal / recover from HOCD?

 

I feel exactly thd same, i identify as a straight man and loved woman.

Porn warped my brain and got me in to gay/sissy/transgender porn so much so that i was wearing lingerie and met up with 4 guys !! As soon as i shoot my load an overwhelming feeling of guilt, sickness and sadness hits me. I was confused for a long time how i am not attracted to men yet i get off to penis ?!? Am i gay? Now my addiction has got to the point where i was stealing lingerie from friends house to wear ! ... i know this was contributing to my anxiety, depression and all round shit feeling.

If you or anyone that reads this needs to talk then please message me, i have felt lost and lonely for a long time now and i am ready to make steps to fix myself

 

Sorry to read this. You can get rid of it by increasing serotonin levels. Please send me a pm.

 

@Sean Edie

I’m straight, but attracted to transsexual or gay porn (or gay attracted to straight porn). What’s up?

Is my fetish porn-induced?

What stimuli must I avoid during my reboot (did I relapse)?

Will stopping porn solve my problems?

I quit using porn and now I feel worse. Is this normal?

How do I know when I’m back to normal?

How do I cope with porn flashbacks?

Does it help to view porn use as immoral?

What do I do when I have too much sexual energy?

Does porn addiction cause irreversible damage to the brain?

Why do porn cues still trigger a rush (sensitization)?