He didn’t know I was awake in bed when he got up and started looking for the t shirt he cleans up with. Digging around in the sheets and on the floor on his side. I knew he was headed to the living room with his phone and headphones. I didn’t go back to sleep. He was out there for an hour. I could hear the sound. I was so embarrassed for him. I was so pissed. Then last night he goes to bed early as he does many nights. Which is code for PMO. He came back I few minutes later. He was mad cause the battery on his headphones was dead. I’m thinking why do you need headphones if you are going to sleep. Do I look stupid. Every time he’s gone for too long I wonder is he pulled over somewhere doing it again. He doesn’t know I think he’s PA with PIED. I’m just standing back observing all these things I’ve blinded myself to. Im educating myself thanks to all of you so I’ll be better prepared for the battle to come. Thanks. I just needed to tell someone about these things that seem to be happening like a bad dream.