The fear of failure

Hello guys

Again I have to deal with some anxious thoughts. This time I think a lot about my college and if I can succeed or not.

I always try my best to study but actually going to college has been a big issue for me. Previous year (way before NoFap) I had a very specific anxiety which I mainly felt during class.

In class I would have the feeling that I have to go to the bathroom to pee and that other people will notice me standing up and go outside. I felt like people were going to judge me all the time in class. Because of this I didn't go to school for half a year but I am now cured thanks to therapy.

I am now back in class since previous semester and I went the whole semester and I almost didn't skip any class.

However, now since NoFap I am dealing with anxious thoughts again (probably the withdrawal symptoms). I don't feel the pee feeling and in social situations I did notice I became more smoother since NoFap but my energy is draining much more faster and my willpower is also a little bit lower then usual which results that I skip classes more frequently now. The problem is that whenever I skip a class I feel enormous guilty and I am afraid to fail just because I missed that one class but at the same time I just feel like I can't do it. My body just refuses to go.

I don't miss a lot of stuff because everything is in our books and I often get bored in class because I study everyday for at least one hour and I am ahead of some classes so I actually don't have to worry about anything but still I do.

I assume this is just the withdrawal and I need to get over it but it's difficult now.

 

Thanks for the support guys. I think I had a mood-swing. I just went outside in nature, reading some books. I feel much better now.

I will continue with my NoFap journey no matter what and I will also continue to go to school! Sometimes I have to just push myself a little bit to get over these things!

Thanks again!