The Jedi Temple (open)

Day 12 checking in.

 

Checking in.

 

253 days

I was absent some days I did another 7 days water fast and wanted to focused on that. Everything good, no urges and mind very sharp and focused.

"If devil is not tempting you, worry because it means he has you hooked, but if he is tempting you be glad because it means you are doing something good and he doesn't like it"

Denzel Washington

 

Day 58 - Jedi Knight

 

Day 61 ✅

 

Day 0 Checking in, I'm trying to return.

 

Day 12

Nothing usual. I went to the gym earlier and the same attractive woman was there again from Day 7 check in with her bf who regularly goes the same time I go to. I wanted to check her out because she has a nice figure. Thick, I would describe it but not fat. Fortunately, I didn't any urges at all even when she was around. Tunnel vision when I was working out. I think it would have been a different story if I was highly triggered while she was there. I would have wanted that. None urges at all. While I was warming up, I saw another one young cute girl that was leaving with her bf I believe. Legs and hips were nice. Apparently, there is third one that have been coming recently whenever I go. She has a cute face but I am not attractive fully because she dresses up like a boy no offense to the ladies that in here reading this. I don't know her figure because the way she dresses. I heard she might be straight despite of how she looks. Oh well, not sure if I will talk with her but I do like her though.

Kind of remind of this one cute attractive girl when I was couple of days in my no PMO challenges. She was working out with her bf. And top she wore was a hoody. Easy to cover her top chest. When I was present, she removed her hoody a couple of times (I have no idea why) and she has big boobs! Nice, big (not too big though), and attractive. I was glad I wasn't triggered. Oh my goodness lol. Maybe she removed it because I was there at the time. Maybe unknowingly wanted to show it off because I was there. I think I would really be attracted to her because of that. Not to say that it matter but I do like big boobs for a reason. And she was cute and slim. Like I said, I am one of the muscular guys in the gym. Maybe she saw and like what she sees when she saw me. Hmm.

Any way, women are usually scared/intimidated/don't like me because of my physique I believe. I guess this will help with my SR/NoFap/no PMO journey. Only up to me if I let my mind get triggered in my head and follow it up with a relapse. I think I am still getting stares from them when I am present. I am assuming that as far as female attraction for me, it won't be too drastic. Maybe something it will happen more drastic often the longer I go. I think one of you guys have a more profound effect the longer you stay on this journey than me though.

Oh and the girl in the front desk is attractive as well. I want to do stuff with her too...if I am horny lol. Usually, she works in the weekends. And that is why I am trying to avoid checking in on those days when she works.

Any way, again barely any urges.

To be honest, this is not a coincidence. There is at least one attractive lady present. I usually go whenever it is not too busy and I expect to be a dead gym with no one around. Since I started, there always at least one hot/attractive woman that is present. This has to be test.

I have no reason to release though. One tip, don't look or look away at an attractive woman if you don't want to be triggered. Simple. That's all.

I will resist the dark side. Keep training!

 

Day 13 checking in.

It has been a good morning, I feel optimistic and energetic, eager to learn and try new things.

 

Day 59 - Jedi Knight

 

Day 62 ✅

 

Day 144, 145 and 146. Checking in.

 

Day 13

My body didn't want to sleep long enough so it decided to wake up early. Only had 4 hours a sleep again. It did it again. I felt as if I needed to nap but I was able to get through it.

No urges in the beginning then it was building up. I thought I had none today but it was building. Because I like certain type of women that I was looking at online that I like. So it built up. I was wrong assuming I was not going to get any urges. Today I had the urges build up.

In the end, it diminished because I got angry about something I saw online. Mad enough not to relapse that's for sure. Anger is working to my advantage. I need to cool things in my head when I get the chance. Meditation I must incorporate eventually.

Resist the darkside. Keep training!

 

Day 14 checking in!

 

I'll be withdrawing from this challenge for now, as I'm looking to proceed on NoFap without counting the days until I reach my target date. There's no rank to accommodate that either. Will rejoin once I've hit my personal goal.

 

This is not mine, so I'm not going to keep the credit, I liked the message, it has helped me to remain determined to maintain my streak, and I hope it helps you too, cheer up my brothers in arms.

The Reason Why Everyone Fails NoFap

I am not going to waste your time by introducing a long story or introduction. I am just going to give it to you straight. The reason why everyone fails NoFap is that they see NoFap as an intense challenge rather than a declaration of war against lust.

The moment that you truly undertake NoFap, congratulations, you have just signed yourself up for a spiritual war. I do not care if you are religious or an atheist, that's what this is. How else can you explain the hold that pornography has had on the world. How else can you explain 28,258 users are watching adult content every second? How else can you explain 1 in 5 mobile searches are for adult content? How else can you explain that 90% of teens and 96% of young adults are either encouraging, accepting, or neutral when they talk about adult content with their friends.

We live in a hypersexual world, and so when you decide to abstain from adult content, you are literally going into battle against reality itself. Sex is all around you. It is in our music, our movies, our social media, our workplace, and almost every other area you can think of. it is almost impossible to go an entire day in our modern world without seeing something which makes you want to fap.

You will continue to fail NoFap because you approach it with " it's a challenge" mindset rather than what it really is, a spiritual war. I use the word "spirit' because this goes beyond what it does to you on a psychological basis. After you fap, you literally do not have motivation to do anything. fapping is not just like other addictions. If you want alcohol, you go to your liquor store. If you want drugs, you go to your supplier. When it comes to adult content, it is literally at the tip of your fingers. Sometimes, you do not have to go looking for it, it finds you. You can be on social media and without any warning, you find yourself looking at a sexually provocative content.

In order to succeed at NoFap, accept the fact that you have just signed yourself up for war. when you fap, you did not just fail "a challenge". You have just been defeated. There are only a handful of defeats you can take until Sexual lust completely consumes you and wipes your ass out of the game of life. it is that serious. So pick yourself up, accept the battle for what it is (it's not a challenge, it is a war), sharpen your weapon (your mind), and fight every single day, hour, minute, and second of your life. Adult Content may not kill you physically, but if you let it, you can kiss all of your dreams, goals, self-control, and anything you hold dear goodbye.

This is war ladies and gentleman, and until you accept that, it does not matter what streak you are on (5 days, 50 days, 90 days, 1272 days), eventually you will be defeated.

 

Thanks for sharing. Agreed 100% it is a spiritual war all the time. Another topic for another time. That is why I view this as fight every day.
On here, to the fight against the dark side.

 

Day 15 checking in.

 

Days 60 and 61 - promoted to Jedi Master

Here I bring a lesson from one of our great masters:

“Don’t center on your anxieties, Obi-Wan. Keep your concentration here and now, where it belongs.” “Always remember, your focus determines your reality.” – Qui-Gon Jinn

 

Day 14

Well I had an strange dream before I woke up. Better sleep today. Nothing but the usual.

I went to the gym earlier and this time another location of the same branch that I go to. Lo and behold, 5 ladies that are attractive that were present this time. Expecting to be less people and no women. But then again as I said, I knew there were going to be there! Before I started this commitment to no PMO/SR & NoFap, now women are present each time. The other side wants me to release I see. 2 or 3 were the ones that I can be possibly attracted to and I would flirt & date. I believe some could just admiring and smiling to themselves when they see me. Nothing more because in my peripheral view I see them smiling at me. Well at least that was it is. I think need to take this as a blessing because it has not gone too far. It feels like I have no female attraction but then again quite a few might actually like me but they are going initiate anything. Just smiling that's all. Not that I am trying base my intention with only female attraction to starting this journey. This is more than that but I would like see the results of that more. Or maybe it happen until I hold on longer. We will see.

As far as urges, in the gym barely any but I like the ladies I mentioned. But I was tunnel vision with my training routine. However, my mind before that I think it would have build up urges because a live streamer (not a cam girl if you know what I mean) and her face looks the same like the P*rn star I was thinking of. Thinking under that category and yes I would relapse if I keep thinking further. I don't want to go into details because some of you might get triggered. Trying make this vague or less detailed as possible lol. It is important not to let your mind wander off into sexual related fantasies. Now you are going in dangerous when that happens. So immediately, I blocked it off in my mind when it started to wander off over that topic of sexual thoughts. Someone on the success stories section mentioned something like this experience so I had the same experience earlier.

Bored as well but I am still able to overcome the day. Usually, boredom eating is my thing when it comes to my diet. Which can be bad in certain situations. I have relapsed before because of boredom but now I think I can handle it now. I am more driven not to do the deed because of boredom ironically. Which is actually to say it was dumb reason to relapse even when I wasn't highly triggered. Not a good release to release. Boredom won't get to me to relapse. I'm good.

Remember it is always war against the "darkside". One of the reasons why you should not relapse. Keep training!

 

Day 15

Still ongoing to Jedi Knight rank.
I didn't do much. Skipped the gym. Bored and did a couple of things today.
Urges were online. Not too bad. I have been thinking of others thing as well.
Such as what I want to do for other goals besides here and an upcoming project I am planning to do for myself during this journey of no PMO.

I can already visual my goals to fulfill after this is journey is done. I completely decided, if I fail in this challenge and the others that I am in currently. I will do this myself but still use the NoFap forums resources. I mean by fail as in if I stumble upon viewing Pron. Going give it three attempts. Because to be honest, there is nothing you can do about it in life. Eventually, Adult content will find you. There were times in this challenge I stumbled across it by accident. But I didn't release and did the deed though. Because of this, I was thinking of relapsing. This was messing with my head with this whole challenge as I was thinking today. I am still retaining my semen and I don't lose my SR/NoFap streak yet. I'm going myself three tries over here. I'm still on my SR/NoFap streak regardless of the challenge. I am still gaining the benefits as I explained in Day 10.

Eventually, I think I might have to break the rules (i.e. viewing Pron unintentionally) because I am still in the process of moving/removing my adult items. Unless I am exempt for that matter.

I have no intentions of releasing my semen. I am still motivated and driven not to MO for the reasons I have given myself. I have the feeling already that I will complete my SR/NoFap goals with or without these challenges. I can feel it & visualize it already. I am confident enough that I would be able to overcame my all urges once it starts coming again since I already experienced it from Day 9. I think I am ready for them once they attack. I still haven't reached "hard mode" per say on this challenge yet. Which can be if I get more female attraction and a lady or more of them starts asking me for sex straight up. And also they would be my type. So that will be hard mode for me already. Hasn't happen yet but I will you guys for sure once I log in my success story here once I complete my temporary goal and including my main goal for here.

It's very clear now why I am succeeding now. My intentions are in a better place compared to the first time I joined this forum.
I know I can do this. My fire inside is there and I know it stronger than ever! And I having fun with these challenges as well

Remember this is war. Do not forget that. The Darkside wants you to fail.
Keep Training!