The Lord of the Rings Challenge

26 - Hobbit, getting closer to that psychological 30th day & becoming Elf!

Active and good day, tried squash for the first time and lost some money bc wife’s birthday but she was happy so thats fine. We’ve made three pizzas from scratch and yeah-I definitely heavily overeaten today.

Workout today was extremely light and only motivation was to get that green check-so yeah it wasn’t the best day but still worth it, also no PMO urges but I was tempted by alcohol and youtube-said no to those so yeah grateful for that!

—Side Quests—
Workout - Check
ColdShower - Fail
HealthyDiet - Fail
Learning - Fail
SideProject - Fail
Gratitude - Check
NoAlcohol - Check
NoYoutube - Check

 

hell yeah dude! only one day for me and I'll meet you there at the shire!

 

Totally agree selfcare should be your number one priority! Stay strong brother

 

Day 300

 

Day 128

 

Day 13 finished.

another weekend with my wife.

I found a new job where I will be able to go to work in an office and not from home. I think it will be much easier to restrain myself. I’ll just have to survive up to that day.

 

Day 7 complete!

Today was a challenge but I gained some good experience. I had nowhere to go today, so I spent most of the day in front of my computer either studying for finals or doing creative writing. I could tell the urges were coming so I made sure to contact my AP and chat with him for a bit. Then around 3 o'clock in the afternoon I knew that I had to get away from my computer for a bit, so I took a walk outside and prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet. In the evening at 8 o'clock I took another break to do my laundry. Before every reset there is at least one moment, maybe more but always at least one, where we can look at ourselves with perfect clarity and know, this action or choice is what will set me on the path to a reset. In the past I've been very bad about taking those moments seriously. Today by the grace of God I did listen, and it saved my streak.

@RiseToGreatness I do still have this fear sometimes, but the truth is, we don't know. It's no good trying to imagine; we have to experience the life of freedom before we can judge it. Do you like being addicted to porn and masturbation? (I already know the answer to that question, haha.) In getting rid of PMO, we are taking good steps to improve ourselves. How can that leave us worse in the end?

Guardian Angels, pray for us!

 

Day 1: Orc (The spell of porn is strong in you)

Today I did some diamond pushups and watched some educational videos on Youtube, but I really felt like I didn't know what to do with a lot of the day. I even stopped and did some word searches for awhile. I have to get more active towards goals for sure. I could reintroduce the full body workout... It was hard to keep up with every day though. I did feel better doing it though.

It's weird; I thought I had accomplished a bit more till I went to post this. I got up on time, did the dishes, worked out and made it back to Orc though which is good. I am also trying not to take baths anymore. For awhile I was again as it's kind of relaxing at night and can count as selfcare, but they can be a trigger for sure. I will have to add more into my evening routine to fill up that time.

I did also look briefly into an online course on digital marketing and may look further into that as I think it's time to move towards getting a better job. It's hard work, stressful and not very good money.

 

0 days >> Nasgûl
It is how it is

Huge congratulations @MS PBH

I understand your argumentation @RiseToGreatness . I do need to drop my expectations and rather start enjoying this journey and make the best out of my situation right now.

 

Day 7

Stayed up too late. Have to find a balance between keeping up with friends who play video games and going to bed on time. Took precautions so that tomorrow morning is manageable.

I will be tempted tomorrow afternoon and need to be exercising. Planning to go on a walk

 

Wise words as always brother. I think that if you slip, then it's meant to be because the universe is trying to teach you a lesson you need to learn in order to move forward. But I also think it's important at the same time to realise that slips are not inevitable, and that you shouldn't use other peoples slips as an excuse to slip yourself. The counter is just a fun thing for me to give some extra motivation, a reminder that beating PMO is also a fun competition with myself

Certainly, beating PMO can induce a certain type of sadness over the fact that I need to part from this pleasure. One thing that helps a little bit for me is my studies of the addiction. Listening to podcasts, reading articles, etc. by people with great insights into this, reminds me in a rational way that my life will be better in the long run without PMO. And I hope my emotions will sooner or later follow my rational thoughts

Congratulations, nice milestone!

 

I just realised i will never ever get rid of this just because I want to, or because my life is perfect. My life is really great tbh. I exercise 4-5 times a week, i meditate daily, i eat healthy, i have tried theraphy, i have tried accountability partners, i dont have any social media and so on. All of this andyou'd think how can you not break free from this? I'll tell you why I have been failing for a quantillian million times.

Last night i was bored for few hours, even though i was on a perfect streak for 10 days sometimes even 15 days but when that boredome kicks in for 1-2 hours, you brain instantly diverts it's thinking into "why not just watch P, i mean you had the perfect 15days, this wouldnt hurt that much" what's really happening here is you lost sight of your purpose, and when you lose sight of your true purpose, it starts attacking your insecurities and all different kinds of voids in your life. My insecurity/void is that i always feel like i am not worthy in the eyes of other people, even though deep down i am.

Whatever you do in life it begins with a "why" when there isnt a "why" life becomes extremely difficult, life begins to tear apart. The "P" industry THRIVES without the "why" and thats why it's creating so much havoc amongst it's industry and our society in general. Drug industry creates so much havoc because it THRIVES without the "why"

There is no such thing as boredome. Boredome is a state of mind which is created by our insecurities and p is just an escape. Do you have moments when you just sit all by yourself contemplating on life and you're just so happy all by your self? whats happening here is that you havent lost sight of your purpose, you're just enjoying and being grateful for the purpose you have in this life.

I just gave you an example of "Boredome" I am sure there similar scenarios, like anxiety, depression, which fuels your insecurities and voids in your life.

Another thing that i want to note down is FEAR! Fear is the opposite of purpose. Purspose is everything to do with you and fear has everything to do with other people. Some are scared if they do something and it doesnt work out then they are hurt, hows that got anything to do with other people? Well, let me tell you one thing. If there was no one on this planet but you, i bet you any money even if the odds of happening are 30% you'd still do it! So fear has everything to do with other people. Purpose and fear can not go hand in hand.

I dont think any of that exists, whenever you feel anxious, depressed, irritated, you have just lost sight of your purpose!

As being a muslim i always wondered why does God tell us to pray 5 times a day???!! 5 times a day??!! Now i realise that we as human beings are soo forgetful, so egoistical, we have so much pride that kneeling before God 5 times a day keeps you grounded whenever you go astray in between the prayer times, prayer is like a magnet that pulls you back when you forget about your purpose. Now i know Sometimes it's hard to rely just on prayer and make that your soul purpose as a human being because prayer is something you can not see, and we human beings respond to physical changes, so as to getting rid of this drug for good you need a real Physical purpose in this world and a real intellectual purpose which is GOD that'll help you quit this drug for good. In the begining you'll be relying a lot on your physical purpose but as time goes on you'll also have the support of your religious/intellectual purpose that'll keep grounded every single day of your life.

Another thing i want to mention is the entitlement of you deserving a rest after few days. You shouldnt choose resting because then whats the point of sleep?? Yes as human beings we get tired, then sleep early?? Okay you dont wanna go running today, then go for a walk? Okay went your with your friends last night that's understood. But be very careful, if you're starting to loose sight of your true purpose when you're out with your friends then is that because of fear of not reaching your purpose? If you think you need to work 24/7 to be on your purpose then are working from a point of faith and confidence or fear?

I say and repeat this again. The loss of sight of your true purpose is the reason you keep getting tired, being lazy, becoming anxious, depressed and bored, having thoughts like "just this one time wont hurt" "I deserve to watch it after 2 successful weaks". I dont even think fear exists to the point where you dont even do a challenge or make a decision. Even successful people fear the unknown just like we do but they still do it because they are so confident of their own product, they just know the result will be excellent. It might not be as they expected but they know it'll be better and when you multiple better X 100, you know have the final outcome you dreamt of

This world will do anything to pull you off your purpose, EVERYTHING!!!

Keep balance of everything. Purpose and fear can not occur simultaneously. One has to be dominate your mind. Your purpose needs to be so true and big that fear has little no room in your mind.

 

We begin this journey of a purposeful life. Day 1 of infinite number of days

 

Day 293 no PMO.

 

And that’s basically essence of my current NoFap understanding-it’s just insane how supportive, thought provoking and intellectually stimulating this community is-on top of that possibility to share & learn from experiences and bettering oneself in ways far exceeding simply not watching nudes or not touching

I feel eternally grateful to find such amazing community!

 

Day 3

 

591

 

Checking in day 14. Only one more day to go and I'll safely arrive in the shire. Cannot wait to start the "real" journey! Good sunday to all of you