Day 4 complete Getting harder. For me once it gets hard it stays that way, the hornynes doesn't go away by it self. And it would continue for at least one and a half months, because that's how long I ever was without sex while in marriage.
Day 8 is done, day 9 checking in. I’m having a lot of temptation rn so I’m going to go to bed. Only thing is, the last few days I’ve weirdly been waking up with my hand gripping my crotch—it’s probably just habit, since I used to PMO in the late night or early morning. Glad I’m getting over this, slowly. I’ve definitely noticed the longer I stay awake the more tempted I am to relapse. Goodnight all!
0 days You decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.
Day 5 - With rain and fog you enter the old village of Bree. Yesterday before I woke up, I dreamt that I came across P or at least saw P. I said to myself hmm but this is unintentional. Then I was thinking & felt as if I started to look more I was going in the intentional viewing now...that is a reset. Then I woke up it was only a dream. I hope that is not in the future...Relieved haha. And I have been getting morning wood recently. Possibly my withdrawal symptoms is coming back slowly. We will see but I guaranteed built up anger will come back again with this Semen Retention I am doing. Seeking shelter in Bree. Keep going Fellowship!
Day 20 no PMO. Starting to feel a little better from my cold. I don’t think it was Covid because my daughter had a cold right before me and she tested negative for Covid. Hopefully this will only be a day or two more before I am 100%.
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 60 Days Free of PMO. I made it to the two month marker. Because of the last couple of days I feel heavy, the ring takes its toll on me. Anxious, angry and achy. Regardless, I mentioned at the start of this streak I would make the days count. I will do so in my capacity. The most important thing right now is to challenge the negative thoughts that arise and to observe the strong emotions. I have no intention of distracting myself and I have full intention of facing this. I will attempt a smaller level of exposure, deeper meditation and some light reading today. Perhaps a stay with the Ents, will alleviate my aches. Stay strong! 60 days – On your path you meet Treebeard, the oldest of the Ents. He offers you Ent-draughts, magical waters from Fangorn ladled out into a large bowl. As you drink, the waters bring refreshment and vigour to every limb of your body. Quest Magic – Ent-Draughts @icebreaker p Thank you bro! Yes, I think it has to do with withdrawal, back on my first long streak I would have this feeling (much more intense too) more often. It would come in waves. Just need to wait it out patiently, which can be challenging because a lot of negative thoughts and strong emotions arise with an already beaten body. As our brother @RiseToGreatness mentioned, it's an opportunity for greater growth. @RiseToGreatness Thank you brother, I'll weather the storm and grow strong from it. @Slider8 and @Kairose Congratulations brothers, both huge achievements! Keep paving the path for us.
Day 136 ---> Another calm day @Slider8 and @Kairose Congratulations brothers , You all motivates us every day.. @Redemptionisrequired Keep the good work up
Yeah..I have felt that at the beginning of the challenge. It's good sign brother. thank you for congratulating to me
Hi there. Been a very long time since I checked in here. Mind if I join you again? I've come to realise that PMO is an emotional outlet for me. I kind of knew it before, but am fully aware of it now. Things got better overall and I'd say that accountability is the next step for me. Besides, I really want to finish this challenge that I started 2 years ago Another question. What's up with the quest items? Edit: Found out that items can be added to the signature. That's cool
Today is Day 4 !! Spend the whole day with my girlfriend yesterday - It was a quite nice day Greets out
3 days. Hard mode. Starting to feel good again. Mind is getting clearer. More sure of myself. Have more energy. I love it when I get to a few days. I lived 99.99 percent of my life since 10 years old not going more than a day or two. Sometimes edging to porn all night. Very often actually. No wonder I was so bloody depressed and had no energy. I wish I would have put two and two together about this 25 years ago. So strange. I changed dramatically at around age 10 or 11. Around the same time I found porn. This s*^t is so bad for me. If I had only known what it was doing to me. Oh well. Cant live in the past. I hope I never act out again. Amazing how terrible this stuff is. Not much for temptations. Girls wearing tight pants is a challenge for me though. So hard not to look. Must keep custody of the old eyeballs though.
OK, I'm back. Had a real crazy couple of weeks. I've fallen but didn't binge. I've made it to 21 days ( my second best record). And now I'm in for the challenge of my life because I have a week alone without my wife. Sorry about my absence, life was just a little too much, but for the next week or so I'm planning to write twice a day and do everything I can to destroy this ring once and for all
Day 301 and relapse back to day 0. Masturbated without o and watched vevo videos on youtube of Britney Spears,Shakira and Mariah Carey,as well as some pics which were quite explicit and exciting.Hope to stay away from binging and start making days count..
Checking in brotherhood!! how you boys been doing? @Slider8 didn´t see that coming are you allright? yeah, your previous answer on my question predicted a sort of impending doom, but i never imagined it would happen so fast do you think it was connected to the difficulty you talked about moving on with your goals and changes in life? As for me, good day so far, very small withdrawal symptoms after sex, 2 days ago. This is a good sign of recovery, but i still gonna be careful before embarking in a regular sex life. i´m gonna try once in a while, to see how my body reacts, and move on from there. So last night, it was the town festival here, and i really didn´t want to go due to the withdrawal, which usually is worst at night when my energy drops a lot. but then again, my wife and daughters were counting on me, so i had to go. I did a wim hof breathing and washed my face with cold water to wake up from letargy, and i remembered the words of M. Gandhi. That gave me strength and hope. The night went allright, still i got hurt some times due to brain fog and social anxiety, but overall it was a good experience, i had fun with my family and friends Today, to compensate, i´m just chilling at home, reading lot´s of stuff and relaxing. later on i will watch the 3rd episode of the rings of power eheh Nothing more to add brave Warriors. Let´s keep going!!! Checking out. "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. when you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength." M. Gandhi
