The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 10

Urges: 3/5
Thoughts: 2/5

Bleh, energy low again today and been going through mild urges too. I'll be glad when the benefits start kicking in.

 

4 days no PM
4 days no video games
11 days no hot shower
0 days no caffeine

it was the stress I think. I felt like I couldn't hold this "perfect abstinence" for too long. Like I was sailing out to the wide ocean for three days but then got scared and quickly returned back to the save haven.

 

Day 0 once again, streak was 10 days.

I may have lost this battle, but i wont give up and i will never lose the war

 

Day 8 checking in

 

Had a wet dream, I don't know if this counts as a restart.

If it doesn't count, it's my day 16.

 

I would not count that as a relapse, because you are not conscious during a dream. It’s your head doing things, against your will. I had lots of them during my streaks, at least one every two weeks, so you are good IMO.

 

day 2 i need to do more changes

 

Day 15 Today
Went through some tough time at school. Now all the focus is on my studies as all my distractions have been rooted out. I hope I will keep my promise of brahmacharya and use this exact energy to create the life I want to live.

 

Day 2 no PMO. I was feeling down yesterday and I assume it was a product of PMO a few days back. PMO always tricks me into thinking it will make me feel better but it always actually makes me feel worse.

 

Thanks brother

 

Day 198
Today is busy day. But I should get some rest . Another beautiful music video is here.
Happy weekend brothers

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

122 Days Free of PMO.

Proper rest once more. I did over indulge in TV yesterday, I aim to become more purposeful with my days off. This happens to me, more so in the afternoon, when I'm on vacation. My plan is to increase reading time, study time and sorting things. Apart from that things are going well, will be experimenting with another new thing in my diet. We'll see if it proves fruitful.

Stay Strong!

@metamorphosed A wet dream is not a relapse, keep going brother! Mind idle fantasy as best as you can though.

 

5 days
Low urges yesterday, I went to the movie theater, was fun and relaxing.
Today I took a cold a shower.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

I need to get better at using my time .

 

Day 11

Urges 1/5
Thoughts 1/5

Still feeling kind of meh, but it does feel like my head is starting to clear up, though it still feels like a foggy mess. Been using this time to watch youtube videos on how to deal with life and how to be a better man.

 

Day 5

 

Want you guy's opinion on something. I've been thinking about incorporating cold baths into my daily routine, mixing it with meditation. They say you need to do it before you workout, but I often try to do it after work because I just can't be arsed to do it before work. But the problem is, after work I barely have the energy to do it; the spirit is willing, but the body says "F*** you" So I was wondering if it would be a smart idea to have the bath before I start working out, because the 30 minute walks beforehand just isn't doing it, what do you think?

 

7 days. All is well. Love the person I am becoming. I am blessed.

 

Checking in. All is well.

 

Day 463, being tempted. Hard.

Spoiler: Possible trigger

Today went to a little fair, where a lot of young girls with no too much clothes on (because of the heat)were buying and selling, or just playing volleyball

Triggery for me, even tho I'm supposed to stay away from girls, today I thought i want to... basically F.

Edit: by the way in my case idk what's worse, to fall in PMO or to have sex with a girl just for pleasure, probably the second...