Checking in Day 37 no MO This past weekend was tough. Working hard and needed to switch off and get some rest. Seems when the body and mind are tired is the time when it seems the most natural & restful thing in the world to do is PMO. Thanks to visiting this site regularly and reading the excellent posts, I knew that this was a trick of the mind, but does anyone have tips on what to do if you are tired, need to down tools, and when exercise would just make you more tired? Basically too tired to do much, but at the same time don't want to fall into the state where PMO seems natural. Yesterday I watched one of those epic 60's movies and it at least distracted me for a while...
Yeah the keys to keep yourself busy. I am doing the same. If I have time to spare and don't have any work, I come up here and go through posts of different groups. It helps a lot. Successfully avoided 99% of the urges. Got very little urges and successfully availed them...
24 days strong today! My longest streak in 2020 has been 24 days, and that was back in January. Tomorrow will then make 25, which will be a new record for this year! Also, I believe my longest overall streak has been less than 30 days, so I only need to make it one more week to establish a new record!!...but that is only the beginning. Freedom is within reach and I am so excited. God is so good!!
Day 14. The reek of PMO is all about me, but I have no mercy. My will is iron. Soon, I shall join the hobbits!
Day 8! Didn't post this weekend because I was a bit under the weather. Took some time to rest and stayed away from temptations the best I could. This is the first time I've made it past a weekend in quite some time. Just need to stay motivated now!
Day 4. I have a bit more energy today and my mood is better too. I have started a new journal in the 40+ forum.
Day 5. Weekend was good. My alarm went off at 6AM, this morning, but I did not get out of bed until 7:30AM when I took my shower, and then I laid with my cat until 9AM before finally getting up and having breakfast. I had a very good conversation with my mom at around 10AM (non-PMO related) about my relationship with my dad. I learned that I had been avoiding him subconsciously though it took her pointing that out to me to realize that. My dad and I are a lot a like, but our relationship is not the best. We both have depression, but he copes with alcohol whereas I cope with PMO. I am working on my PMO addiction and he still says that he does not have a problem, that he can drink in moderation (which is sometimes true, but not when he is worried about something, or depressed, which happens quite a bit). I have not had too many urges since my relapse last Wednesday at 1AM, and I have been staying off the internet for the most part which seems to be working, I just have to work on not staring into the abyss because I will ultimately be tempted to be consumed by it. That mean not even watching movies with nudity unless the film actually looks good and I am not watching it for the nudity. I know that the urges will return and be a lot stronger, I just need to keep focused. best, Mathman1994
Day 1 completed successfully The first step in freeing yourself from your out of control behavior, is learning how to control it. You’re going to become a much happier man when you learn that; All the best brothers Your brother in this struggle
Day 6 completed. Day 7 to begin tomorrow. Now a Uruk – Hai. Staying busy to avoid urges. It's working till now...