Day 9 Check in! Yesterday I almost relapsed! Everything start when I was reading a normal magazine and I watch a model and that triggered my brain and then I researched for that same model in the internet and I found that she was a porn star and when explicit content started show up like pornografic videos I shut down the page on the internet and then I was going to do other stuff. Never give up!
Day 50!!! I'm no longer a hobbit! I'm a dwarf now!! This sure is exciting!! If I feel the urge, I tell myself, that feeling is only temporary. It's not like you will explode if you hold it in. A lot of it is a mental game that has been ingrained in us since we all started. We need to change our thinking. You do not need to look at porn, you do not need to masturbate. It is in your head thinking you need to and our culture doesn't help it at all. Learn from your last mistake and build on it. You all got this. If you fall, you stand back up and keep trying. If you are on this site, we all are here to help you stand back up and keep moving. You are not alone!
Day 42. The intensity of the urges have gone down drastically as compared to the first 2 weeks. No more stupid dreams too. I'm not complaining, just have an inkling that this will not always be the case. Anyway, off to Moria for now
Day 9 Hope this week will be great for everyone! I want to be more productive and continue to work on my goals Have a great Monday!
Day 5 complete. One more day to being an Uruk-hai...but wow, today was hard. Not feeling too great. I think it would be good for me to reanalyze the time I spend online. I hate what an unpredictable, treacherous, lawless place it can be. Content that is highly triggering, if not outright pornographic in and of itself, pops up in the most random and unexpected places. I definitely peeked today but I felt as though I retained a greater level of self-awareness than normal. I told myself it was not good, I didn't need that stuff, and that I should shut it down, and it took me a few minutes, but I did. Didn't masturbate to it at all, either. The feelings of guilt are really lingering, though. It doesn't feel worth resetting but maybe I should. Any thoughts? Edit: will porn blockers work through Incognito Mode?
Day 35. Still going strong. Not experiencing anymore chaser effects this time around after making love to my wife. Fingers crossed that brain fog and negative effects from semen release stay away.
Day 27. With the help of God we begin this week and this day as I said walking step by step. We are all in this fight and we all can win, lets fight until the end brothers and sisters. Holy Mary Pray for Us.
Day 189 was when i could not give in and did all off the PMO thing and i relapsed! Maybe its i was still lonely.. Maybe its because i felt so tensed and depressed while not making any new habits in my life and not improving my social life.. its so hard because of lockdown and covid.. Maybe because i hate my job and are scared to open my business or to look for a new job.. again so hard because of covid and lockdown. Maybe its because of years and years living with my parents by countryside.. while not hanging out with anyone and not being social.. Just saving money in the hope of greating my own business or change of career.. Maybe its because its so hard to stay strong all the time and not give in to pmo.. Sorry for whining here, but i feel like so hopeless and destroyed i dont know how to change my habits and improve my social life. Every thought of moving out of my parents house seems like waste of resources and into the further loneliness because i have no real friends and its kinda hard to date when everything is in a lockdown. Back to day 0 If anyone in age of 27 to 29 needs an accountability partner please message me.
Day 81. I have been through the ringer the past few days. The P knows my weaknesses and knows when I'm feeling down. In the early days the influence was strong and seductive, but as time went by it became an annoying minute buzzing. Nothing worth going back to. I put it in my mind, "PORN IS NOT AN OPTION"!
no bro, not at all. peaking is not a relapse. i encourage you to keep the counter running. peaking is a slip, far from a reset. please reconsider bro, sliding is very normal in the reboot.
don´t reset brother. peaking is normal. it´s not good, dangerous in fact, but it´s normal in the reboot. yes, my porn blocker works in incognito mode, mine is ********
