The Lord of the Rings Challenge

402 days high king
478 days no PMO, semen retention

 

DAY 20 FRIDAY .

 

Relapse
I relapsed today.
But I am going to start again and learn from it.
As "Either I win or I Learn"
So this time the changes in the plan are:
# Daily meditation in the morning
# Reading a great and inspiring book
# Scheduling my online time
# Do it without a Blocker this time
(For me personally blocker creates a feeling that I am missing on something really good which not the truth. Also it makes me think that I can not do it myself and I am weak) which leads me to crave for it and finally a relapse.
# Spend more time in my studies
And the gamechanger and most important one:
## I would from now on consider any delibrate attempt to intentionaly search or access any porn or porn related content even for a milli second as a relapse and will reset my counter.
I hope this will work.
I would love to have your views and suggestions
Thanks

 

Day 179 no PMO. Hanging in there. Six more days of quarantine which doesn’t sound like long when compared to my No PMO streak! I can do this!

 

Day 8
Uruk-hai
I am fishing again but i will stop of do it.
I feel with more energies, motivation too , in the others attempts this does not happened yet on early days, i notice a difference on this aspect.

 

Day 35

 

Day 83, trod on!

83 days – You enter the Dead Marshes, a swampland.

“Dreary and wearisome. Cold, clammy winter still held sway in this forsaken country. The only green was the scum of livid weed on the dark greasy surfaces of the sullen waters. Dead grasses and rotting reeds loomed up in the mists like ragged shadows of long forgotten summers.”

The lights of the fallen fapstronauts seduce many into oblivion. You stare at the water.

 

Yeah, man! My words of encouragement /advice would be to continue learning what works for you and learning from the mistakes you make. Your mindset is really important; for instance, it's best to think of relapses as "Mistakes" and not "Failures" as failure is only when you give up entirely. A mistake tells yourself you're still trying, still achieving. Mantra's (a phrase to inspire/remember and therefore garner strength) have been really helpful.

You can checkout @Redemptionisrequired post on this topic here -> https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...ant-steps-in-overcoming-pmo-addiction.313854/

I found a lot of good advice from it which you'll recognize.

Also, just as a warning from my life. I have struggled immensely with this addiction and I've paradoxically found great strength in realizing I was much weaker than I ever thought. Weak enough that I'll do/use anything that's supposed to help me. I believe there's strength in acknowledging our weaknesses. Just something to consider and may it never be prescience.

 

day 44- elf

 

I'm on Day 5!

I feel very excited but I'm also trying to keep it contained haha. If I make it past this day it will be my longest streak ever!

I've never felt more connected to this moment.

 

50 days Moria, the greatest Dwarven Kingdom, is before you. With a beard and a axe, you´re a Dwarf now.

 

Happy for this.

 

I relapsed after a 23 day streak . I feel like I cheated myself. I had a very bad cold and was not able to exercise or do a cold shower mostly stayed in the bed the entire day which ultimately led to the relapse.

Day 0 and moving.

 

Current streak: 478 days no PMO, semen retention

These are the main meditations I do in order to balance sexual energy: DanTien and microcosmic orbit meditation. After you are able to refrain your body and mind from PMO and have a decent streak, this can create sexual tension because an excess amount of male/Yan energy. If you don’t have at least 30 days streak these practices are not so useful, you need energy to work with energy.

Stretching: I find it useful, especially early in the morning to do some stretching before meditation, this way practice becomes more easy.

Dan Tien meditation
Posture: it’s the most important aspect; there are even some zen schools that simply focus on breathing and posture to meditate. If you can remain seated with good posture and a calm mind for a good amount of time this is enough to balance your sexual energy.
Legs: You sit crossed legs, half or full lotus, some masters advocate sitting on a chair so that way your feet (barefoot or cotton socks) are in contact with the earth which is a negative pole(yin/ feminine) this helps to balance you more fast.
Hands: laying on your knees facing upwards or backwards. You can also do a mudra with your hands

Gyan Mudra

Dhyan Mudra


Back: straight without leaning it backwards, it needs to stay erected by itself, this is essential if your back is not straight the energy cannot travel properly.
Head and neck: aligned with your back and a little inclined forward. Touch the tip of the tongue to your palate just behind the front teeth, this relaxes the face and will serve as a bridgeto connect some energetic pathways.
Shoulders: a little bit backwards so you can put your chest a little bit out to have better posture.
Eyes: you can focus your gaze with open eyes to a point in front of you, it’s better if the point is on the floor. Some masters specially Taoists masters advocate closing your eyes because you are trying to focus and move energy, I think this last advice is true but if you are feeling sleepy or your mind is not calm, opening your eyes for a while can help to deal with this.

Meditation: the energy is stored in a point four fingers below the belly, when you are trying to accumulate energy you focus on this point DanTien and the energy naturally starts to increase and become more clean simply focusing there. At the same time you focus on your breathing and in trying to be aware and relax at the same time.
You can start by 10 minutes two times a day and little by little increase your meditation time.

Microcosmic orbit meditation: After some time of gathering energy in the lower belly and you have a decent semen retention streak, this also means no wet dreams or ejaculatory sex, you will start to experience the energy gathered in the DanTien wants to move freely throughout all your body, you simply let it move, the microcosmic orbit meditation is a pathway you can use to move energy. It starts from your lower back moving upwards and then it connects to the front your body with your tongue it goes down connecting the energy again to your back in a point close to your coccyx and it goes up again, your repeat this several times. If the energy wants to stay in a place of the pathway for a while you let it stay.

Your back is more Yang/masculine and the front of your body is more yin/ feminine. You can visualize the energy in your back of color red/Yang and in front of you blue/ yin. The microcosmic orbit will balance even more these two opposite forces to create a calm, powerful, deep sexual energy in you.



Biography
If you want to know more about these two meditations
- The tao of health, sex and longevity by Daniel Reid: in the section meditation he explains it in a very simple manner
- Awaken healing light of tao by mantak chia. He explains it very well, he also does some preliminaries before the meditation, its more complex but if you want to go deep is worth giving it a look.
-The secrets of Chinese meditation by Lu K´uan Yu(Charles Luk) : the DanTien chapter also at the end of the book the author writes a journal of his experience doing these meditations. He was a former masturbation addict and improved his health thanks to meditation. He is quite knowledgeable and an interesting read.

 

Checking in 3 days into my new streak. I feel good. No urges and working on my goals.