So here's the dealio. I need to reset my other counter (M), as I ended up "interacting" with myself yesterday. However. I've decided to not reset my whole counter (P), as I didn't watch or do anything related to porn whatsoever. My intention of this journey here on Nofap is escaping from the addiction of porn itself, not semen retention, since I'm also working towards a closer and healthier sexual relationship with my wife (I have already been sexual active since november 4th). I didn't watch porn, and don't have any intention doing so. I relate porn as something pathetic, sick, unworthy and devastating, and haven't felt any urges or craving towards it, not a single molecule of my body - during my 11 days, yesterday or today. I decided to leave the addiction (of watching, interacting or have anything to do with porn in my life) behind 11 days ago, and I'm never going back. Ever. Just so everyone knows. Peace out. 24 hours without P: +1 (Streak: 11) 24 hours without M: - (Streak: 0) 24 hours without Social media: - (Total: 6) Gym: - (Total: 2) Reading Ea-Pea: 54%
Day 4 Will reach day 5 in a couple of hours. And on day 16 of my meditation streak. Funny how my meditation streak goes by so fast but a day of nofap feels much longer. Probably because conquering a meditation session a day is a much shorter length than conquering a full 24 hours every day without PMO. Props to our discipline! To be honest though, I feel like my urges are very manageable these days mainly because of preparation to some social tasks that I have pending for school i.e. group presentations and a woman I've been talking to, Holiday family time coming up and a potential career goal. If it wasn't for these things on my plate and people I have to interact with, I likely would be indulging in porn a lot more frequently (Been taking N-Acetyl Cysteine lately too which I'm pretty sure also helps me with urges). For some reason, I put more mind into my social anxiety and tend to manage my social anxiety more poorly when I am indulging in PMO. So, I'll rather be disciplined and steer clear from PMO at least for now because there's plenty of social interacting I have to do for the remainder of this month.
Mr. Anderson: 3/6 Welcome back @T0mCrus4der! Loving the numbers we have within our ranks at the moment, all committed to fighting the Porn Matrix. The Agents will definitely be trying to demotivate us, and attack us when we least expect it.
Day 12 24 hours without P: +1 (Streak: 12) 24 hours without M: +1 (Streak: 2) 24 hours without Social media: - (Total: 6) Gym: - (Total: 2) Reading Ea-Pea: 54%
Mr. Anderson: 4/6 Thanks, and welcome to the resistance, mate! Remember, you can name your hovercraft if you wish!
Last time I logged in, I was on day 70 or something Today.... it is day 106, so you can call me Morpheus and I'll tell you "Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself."
Day 6 The greatest gift we can offer another person is to allow them to be who they are, and not what we want them to be.
