Thinking about Killing myself

Does your mother know about your addiction and depression? I know many young people who live with their parents, she shouldn´t tell you things like that. You are not a failure! I am from Sweden and would like to help if you want somebody to talk to. If you are to ill to call for help I would like to do that for you. I have good insights in PMO struggles with this. I will send you an email so we can write in Swedish.

 

You have a roof over your head, some worm place to sleep and food. You are probably healthy, no desease that would unable you to move/ do things. If so, you have perfect conditions to get better. Of course there is a light!

What you should do:
-make a plan with concrete, acheivable steps to get better
-do at least one specific thing everyday to get better
-approach your problems one at a time, with little steps and patience
-stop blaming others for your situation, even if you're right sometimes. It's a bad habit.
-learn to love yourself. I'm sure you're a great, interesting individual with a great potential. Anyone can lose their way sometimes.
-don't compare yourself to others. It's obsessive and pointless. Compare yourself to you from your past, make improvements, even those smallest.
-get help, talk to someone. Friends, NF or other communities, therapist or other professionals. It's always a step in the right direction, and can help you get a lot better.
-determine what is the root of your problems. It may not be only PMO. In my case it was undiagnosed ADHD that led to depression and PMO. I cannot even describe the relief I felt when i finally had the clear picture of what was wrong with me.

Finally, everyday can be the beginning of your new life. All it takes is a little effort.
You'll get better, dude. Never give up!

 

I would agree that if you need to speak to a professional.

However, I can also provide some informal advice to you because I've had a similar life to where you are right now. I was supposed to graduate with a degree in Social Work and Psychology only to find out that my financial aid ran out the last semester. As a result, I moved with family to Atlanta, thinking I would find a job and move out quickly. It happened a lot slower than I thought.

I will also point out that your focus is on everything you feel is going wrong. No one, and I mean no one, has a life that can't be improved for the better. Here are three practices I would recommend for you

1. Start appreciating what's already in your life. This might sound cheesy but I started to making a positive shift in my life when I played a game of naming at least 5 things that went right in my life. When I first started, my list was rather simple: 1. I have Internet access. 2. I got a Retweet from DJ Khaled 3. I made a girl laugh....but I kept at it. Eventually, I started to change my perception of what was going on around me. My situation on the outside may not have changed a lot, but I started to shift my focus.

2. Plan where you want to go. Another piece of advice I got was from Craig Ballantyne who said to get up 15 minutes earlier tomorrow and start planning the life that you do want. A lot of times we continue life without really focusing on where we do want to end up. We just know that we're unhappy in the spot that we are currently in. We don't take the time to define what kind of life we do want. I would encourage you to get up 15 minutes earlier tomorrow and just dream about your what your life could be. Here's a way to get started. On a piece of paper, write down everything that is going wrong in your life, now flip the paper over and write the reverse of it. For example, you could write "I don't have a job." On the other side, think about the kind of job that you would like to have and the money you would like to earn. I'm not talking about a million dollar deal from a reality TV show. I'm talking about a job that you can actually see yourself getting. When you were a kid, what job did you dream of doing? What subjects did you enjoy in school? The point is not to get an exact answer (that comes later)but just get your mind thinking.

Once you filled out the list, circle the things that stand out to you the most. Get up 15 minutes earlier again the morning after that and identify one step that you can do to move in that direction. It does not have to be some big thing. It could be reading an article about your chosen career, watching a movie, signing up for a free course (there are plenty, reapplying for school, whatever. Just try one step. You might completely mess this step up, but who cares? You are working on awesome. I've had so many wrong turns and misdirections that ended up taking me to places that I enjoyed going.

3. Start getting fit, getting social, and getting rich Third, work your base. You can't have a successful life if you don't have a strong foundation. Let's work on that. The fundamentals are your fitness (and nutrition), your relationship (to yourself and others), your mind, and finances. For fitness, start doing pushups. I literally started with one pushup against the wall, one situp, and one squat. If you need to, do the same. Continue adding 1 more rep each day (or every other day). Why are you doing pushups and situps? To build an awesome body while you building an awesome legacy. For social, continue to find 5 things to be grateful for, but also consider meditation. I'm not talking "Ohm" meditation (unless you like that kind of stuff), I'm talking about 5 (or more) minutes where you are wrapped up in something else. This could be listening to music, exercise, drawing, etc. Whatever it is that you do and you feel less concerned about the world, start doing that every morning to get yourself ready. (Morning routine is another thing that you want to work on, but later). The point is to get in the habit of setting your day instead of letting it habit. After that, my advice to you is to do one of two things: either find 5 people you can help online (like posting an encouraging message to other NoFappers) or find at least 5 ways to be helpful or funny to the people around you. Your call. For your mind, pick at least one new thing to learn. Keep doing this every day, but as you do, notice what you are gravitating towards. That's your ticket to a new life. Lastly, save a $1 (or more) each week if you can. Why do I say a $1 because you need an emergency fund. Until you get to where need to be financially, things happen. Those things (like house repairs, car emergencies, etc.) could derail you steps toward financial freedom. Get in the saving. Oh, and think of a least 10 ways you can earn a $1 starting today.

 

Common man reply????

 

Is this person still alive?
Can anyone confirm?
It has been over 2 days and he hasn't replied yet
I'm getting worried

 

Me too , I hope hes fine.

 

I don't think that 10 dollars makes people happy.
The problem is already gettin' a job
Seek for a psychotherapist ^^

 

Sorry to hear you're down on your luck right now but things can change and you're not alone. I'm 24, have no girlfriend and I am not even well liked. I felt like shit when I failed and have to resit a year of uni. Sometimes we get dealt a bad hand but 99% of them won't kill us. You always have control over how you respond to things. Live each day as its own by asking yourself how you can spend the day in a way that will move you further towards your goals.

 

Even if you have financial aid can you still apply for more?

 

You would think so, but when the check wasn't coming, the financial aid office was in no rush to help.

Part of the issue is my fault. I was younger and when someone says, "Here's some money to go to school and you can keep what's left over", I said, "Sign me up." As a result, I didn't check the fine print about limits (There is a limit on how much Pell grant and student loans you can get at each level.) I also had no problem jumping from major to major, adding a semester or two of classes that I didn't need. (That's why I focus so strongly on awareness on any journey, including NoFap. If you don't take the time to look at where you going and why you're going there, you get caught up.)

The other issue is the school's fault. I decided on Social Work at the beginning of my junior year and did not look back.The Social Work program that I was enrolled in was just getting accreditated and doing everything to get that accreditation. That included changing classes around and changing requirements around. Realistically, I could have completed the internship and graduated, but that requirement was changed literally while I was in the Social Work Advisors office. I had to wait until all classes were completed...which was my final semester. I don't blame the college, though, they were doing what they thought was best for them. That experience did teach me about the theme of control. Even if you do everything right, it doesn't mean that you still won't make your goal. The key thing at that point is how you reconnect to your bigger goal. I could stay mad and angry about the whole college thing or I could focus on my bigger goal, make a great life.

I do plan on going back to college but when I do, it will be on my dime, not Uncle Sam's (unless he want to give me a scholarship, I'm OK with that!)

 

Man don't kill yourself. I've been suicidal for 2 years. I had a mother with borderline... this literally mindfuck. But do not give up. Nofap has helped me a lot! I got no suicidal thoughts anymore!

How do I do it? Go outside, literally every day and talk about your feelings/urges. Come on man, take my advice

 

Don't kill yourself, just get out of that hurtful enviroment. There are places that take in people with no job or income where you can start from the ground and build yourself up. I've had suicidal thoughts and I realized it's the circumstances around you. I had a job that paid well but made me unhappy, my family are good people but sometimes make feel miserable. You have to be a little bit selfish and stop thinking about the people that don't support you the way you need and leave them behind.