I'm on day 4 tomorrow and am feeling uneasy. I was very confident and I have a huge goal of meeting an online brother in the spring. I met this friend on experience project when I was dealing with depression and rejection. I think rejection drove me to masturbation in the first place and keeps driving me back whey I lose hope for a breakthrough. I have a hard time making and keeping friends as I'm not always able to be entertaining or upbeat. I feel people in general get bored of others and move on anyway... Thanks social media... Seems it's made us a commodity to one another. I'm just hoping I can keep this up because I want my bro to be proud of me as he's actually one that doesn't leave. Most importantly since I'm stuck with myself I don't want to live with a disappointment.. Me.