Want to reset

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by JohnBaker90, Nov 25, 2019.

  1. JohnBaker90

    JohnBaker90 Fapstronaut

    Hey guys,
    so, it's been 143 days since I've started NoFap (hardmode). It's been life changing, and pretty much life saving as well.

    However, from the start really, I've been suppressing my urges. Whenever I had sexual urges, I'd think of something else. I would try my hardest to make erections go away, and avoid any and all fantasies. This worked wonders for killing urges, but at the same time... it did it too well. I feel a bit asexual now, even after my flatline. I rarely think about sex, get random erections or get morning wood. I don't have that same energy as I did when I started. I'm sure those who have know what I'm talking about, that drive. I was getting up early and exercising as much as I could. Cleaning and organizing. Studying and reading. While I feel more calm and confident now, I miss that. I miss my sexuality. I've conditioned my mind in a way where it feels wrong to think about sex or to check out girls, because it reminds me of how I was when I was watching porn.

    That's why I want to start over. The plan is to "kick start" my libido with a non-fantasy, non-porn MO (which I read about on yourbrainonporn.com), and then try to 'transmute' my sexual energy, rather than suppress it. Does that make sense? I know that many will disagree, saying that I'll lose the benefits or my streak, but the thing is, they both don't matter. I'll get both back. I've become an almost entirely different person since I started, and I certainly plan to remain who I am, even after a single MO session.
    I would just like to hear some thoughts. Perhaps some advice. Thanks

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