What I Learned About Myself Through Porn

Let me just begin by saying that denial is a huge part of porn addiction, considering I told myself that for years I was just “helping myself go to sleep” by masturbating before bed. In reality, I was loading my brain with the fabricated/tampered reality that I was banging multiple 10s every night, therefore making it difficult to maintain an erection when I would have sex with a REAL girl.

This has only gotten worse lately as I have gotten older. When I was younger I could have sex multiple times and still be ready to go, but now that’s not so true. Since my last 3 sexual partners, I’ve found it hard to get off with them. This started to worry me and my dick would just become a source of disappointment. I knew about Nofap and thought about it but brushed it off as total bullshit;

“Watching porn causes me to not perform well? Yeah right, it gives me pointers on how to perform better! Besides, it helps me sleep.”

And that is where i was wrong. That was the denial of not accepting my REAL problem: porn. Porn is bad for the brain and is causing my libido to be low and make real women just seem, well, average. Average is good though, because they are only “average” to me because I’m so used to having sex with 10s in my head all the time. Porn also just makes Us subconsciously look at women in a different way, mainly as sex objects instead of potential mates. Overall, porn does more bad for us than we know.

As I’ve discovered this problem I’ve decided with the new year I’m going to try Nofap and quit porn FOR GOOD. I want to create this thread to have new members such as myself to talk about it and give updates. Be honest, open, and ready to beat pornography and recognize it for the absolute evil it is.

Let’s do this.

 

So far it is just abstaining from pornography and masturbation. I meditate or do something else productive to get my mind off of it. I just remind myself that porn is bad and what the pay off will be later. I also just try to have the mindset of "it won't be that bad, you got it." This has lasted me until today, day 3. Hopefully after a week the hardest part is over.

 

So far it's been good getting away from porn, that is the biggest struggle and what I believe to be the worst for me. I already feel better and am beginning to look at women with actual feeling instead of just wanting to bang them, pretty nice.